penat la gile..

gua penat mak aiii keja bai..tuh la orang kata belajaq tamao~!hahaha...anyway its such an experience for me..yeah for the first time im working derr..i need to wake up early in the morning everyday!!!!!! then it will finish at 7pm nasib badan....haha! but for me its ok..ak rasa bertuah sebab ak dapat gaji pon highest compare to others padahal baru je keja nk kata kedai bapak aku mmg xla..then balik pulak awal gile la yeop! kul7 bai...org lain smpai ke mlm ak kuar umah matahari nak naik then balik uma pon ada lagi matahari xde la sedih sgt..hoho!

but the happy time is so sure not last long i need to stop from working because of some reasons that i could not avoided..mungkin rezeki ak sampai kat situ je kot...xpela ini semua qada and qadar ^_^

getting mylife busy was awesome actually because this is the way MAYBE to forget what had happened but yeah deep inside you are still alive..i can't lie to my self..even though i want to run away from you, i can't because im so sure you don't have anybody to talk to..yeah even though i've to accompany to talk about the same thing over and over again, it does not matter as long you feel relieve...maybe i can't do anything and i will leave it on time to decide...im not saying that im a good guy but im just doing what i think i should! im just pity on you i can't leave you alone...

after all, i have to spend my time to do sooOOO many things during this month! final wind orchestra...vacation with my BEST FRIEND and lastly going to my brother house to spend sometime there to release my stress and remembering all those memories in penang...haha! so i wish i will do all these job smoothly and tomorrow is money timeeeee!!!!! xD

chiowWWW xD

experiences and lessons...

yeah long time i keep on silent..just to forget it for sure la and doing something else rather than remembering those who are very disrespectful and ungrateful...starts to get busy with myself and alhamdulillah i've work now! huhu...even this is the second job i get but happily i wanna say that this is the job that i can stand on without all those fucking shit people who are always taking for granted on others..! thnx to Allah for making mylife easier to go through all these things in my life...

slowly insyaAllah i will try to forget her but the memories remain...i can't lie to my self because that's the honest thing ever i've done towards someone...so im just praying that i will get the best and Allah will give me the best in continuing my life now and here after!amin......i will try to accept the fates as what they are..no more love no more sacrifice no more pain hopefully...i will certainly at this moment to say that im totally OFF with all this thing!!! lets the time decides for me to open it...i will never put any hopes because i know 'HOPE IS THE FIRST STEP OF DESPAIR' thnx am for the remainder! xD i will take it for the whole of my life...

helping people is a must! and Allah maha kaya to help us back even if it takes quite sometime for us to know..but as for me and newly experience it...helped mysister to get job and the next day i got an offer from this company..im so lucky! first because i never expected for that job because they have enough workers to do all those jobs...haha~! i can even get the job without undergo any interview!=) alhamdulilah and its true what people said...if we take a good care our "responsibilities" our life will be better and easier!see how God can help us in our life..just have faith in our chess..=)

now im moving on with my own life with mom only..dad??? forget about him la because for me he never exist in our family! he's just drop by here for me and useless to us....i've to say this because he never appreciate what i've gave to him! permission to be with us..i'm holding the last word..let God decides what the best...I can't get long with him anymore!

till now, i'm quite recover from the nightmare! yes very2 nightmare..haha! keep on smiling but ddep inside is like a hell..thnx for all the advice i got to wake me up from this hard time in my life..till now bye!