ours..

now that i've lost everything to you

you say you want to start something new

and it's breaking my heart you are leaving

baby i'm grieving

if you wanna leave take good care

hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

and a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

i'll always remember you like a child girl

you i've seen a lot of what the world can do

and it's breaking my heart in two

cause i never want to see you sad girl

don't be a bad girl

but if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware, yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl, yeah

baby I LOVE YOU, if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get bu just upon a smile,yeah yeah yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl....

~mR.biG~

memories remain....

yeah after all ive been thru in this life...life must go on~! fact is a fact no matter how bitter it is or how sweet it is...i have to accept it..betul kata orang kalau dalam hidup ni nak semua manis bukan life laa kan..kalau ada yang pahit tuh at least someday u have something to share or to talk about...im slowly recover from what u did and i will try to forget everythings..for me, maybe Allah wants you to be a better person someday and so do i...yeah learn from the past xrugi ape2..just jgn ulang kesalahan yang kite dah buat and one thing jangan sesekali menganiaya orang yang telah berbuat kebaikan kepada kita..

orang selalu kata kalau kita baik sangat akn ada orang yang akn pijak kepala kita...yeap mmg betul dh lumrah manusia but aku diri aku. Ak akn troskan ape yang aku rasa selama nie bnda tuh patut tok aku buat and walau apapon terjadi x bermaksud tok aku berubah menjadi someone yang too bad~! kta hnya manusia and hnya mampu berdoa dia Allah saje la yang hukum sape2 yg belom sedar yang dia nie hanya manusia kerdil and Allah boleh je nak amek nyawa dia anytime..walaupon baru sikit rasanya ape yang Allah uji aku skrg nie aku dha rasa berat gila kot....macamana la aku nk hadapi lau dugaan yang lagi besar dari nie...

kita akn byk lagi akn merasa kehilangan dalam hidup kita..aku anggap ini adala ujian tok aku hadapai ujian yang ke depan yang belum tahu lagi mcmana...tp ak sentiasa berdoa agar Allah hindarkan aku dari ujian2 yang xmampu aku lalui and supaya Allah tak ambil org2 yg aku sayang dalam masa yang terdekat..sebab aku taw suma yang hidup akan mati someday cuma kta tataw ja bila..walau camana pon ak bersedia lom tentu ak akn berani hadapi bnda nie lau Allah nk uji aku..Hnya Allah tahu ape yang terbaik untuk aku..semoga segala doa2 aku kepadaNya dimakbulkan...amin.....

wake up~

pada mula mmg ak rasa serba xkena lepas ape yang dah jdik kat aku time nie...but as far as ak lalui bnda nie walaupon sorg2 kat umah tapi aku tetap xrsa sorg sebab x putus2 concern dari member2 aku yang amek kisah ape jadik kat aku kat sini walaupn jauh dgn korg tpi korg mmg da best..thank sebab korg terlalu amek berat psl aku wlaupon korg penah nasihat aku dulu tp yela org kata sebabkan sifat someone tuh kte jdi so unpredictable and aku take that risk nk harung jgk but end up mcm nie la...aku sendri pon xsangka bnda nie lej jdi sampai mcm nie..walaupon rasa sakit nie aku sorg yang rasa tp dengan ada korg buat aku bole jgk face it..thank korg...

at same time tanpa aku sedar Allah ni nk tunjuk jgk ape salah aku..bnda yang xpatot aku buat..rupanya bnde tuh salah..someone yang ak penah sayang dulu and penah tok lupakan dia walaupon dh jadi kawan tp ak xpenah appreciate dia as kawan...since ape yang jadi ni dia sendiri contact ak and terlalu amek berat dgn aku...mgkin apa yang jdi ni balasan apa aku dah buat kat dia...sori dats mybad...walaupon kta berpisah bukan sebab salah sapa tp atas family xpatot rasanya aku abaikan dia as kawan...she's nice girl i ever met and no one can beat you so far...aku berani ckp sebab aku kenal dia..walau cmana pon ak dah buat dia still amek berat kat aku amek kisah aku apa jadi kat aku..untung sapa dapat dia...boleh diharap and independence! i wish da best for your life RITA....

once again thank to you all my friends for all ur concern apa yang dh jadi kat aku...xperlu kite salahkan sape2 sebab mgkin ni ujian dari Allah tok aku...ak perlukan korg dalam hidup aku doe..tok bg aku support in anything aku buat...thanks a lot to mymom sebab always dengar masalah aku..and so far ak makin recover...special thanks to:

-my beloved mama-

-faliqizhamcrabnizamlutfeeadam n others sek8 geng-

-rita-

thanks alot....

cerita aku...

well ak sendiri dah speechless dh tataw nk ckp ape..mulut ak kelu nk berkata hati aku mmg berkecai mcm gelas kaca jatuh kat lantai berselerak...tp ak terpaksa terima keperitan ni alone...she's no longer with me..tp ak xnk salah kan sapa2 mgkin Allah nk uji cinta aku kat dia...and ni jgk ujian tok dia sama da dia akn buat cmana dia penah rasa dulu tok bgi aku rasa..yes! nampak dunia ni mcm xadilkan..tp ak percaya setiap yang jadi ad hikmah dia....

perpisahan ak dgn dia bukan la diminta..semua nie mmg takdir since permintaan keluarga dia ak sendiri terima dgn hati yg terbuka sebab ak harapkan yang terbaik untuk dia..bukan sb family xdpt nk terima ak tp sebab dorg risaukan anak sorg yg satu2 nya pompuan takut kecewa sekali lagi..ak xdpt buat ap2 ak hnya terpksa turuti walaupun ak akn tanggung siksa sakit dalam hati aku...semua yang terjadi ni ak terima dgn hati yg terbuka and ak sanggup jdi mangsa keadaan and ak xkisah la walaupon dalam masa ak kenal sekejap sgt jnji dia happy dgn aku..and dpt hbes kan sem3 dgn sempurna xkisahla walau pon aku jdi bounce guy...yeah this is not the first time....in life nothing to lose..good deed will replied with good deed..insyaAllah...

kepada org yg penah lukakan hati dia kau patot rasa bersyukur sebab kau dpt kasih syg dia yg suci and murni tapi kau dh sia2kan dia...ak xkisah ak kena tanggung akibat dari perbuatan kau...ak rela as long her life terjamin...aku hanya terkilan sebab org yang aku syg leh tggl aku tanpa sebarang kata..dia penah ngaku dia syg ak and dh sedia bagi ak hati dia walaupon xsepenuh aku mengerti keadaan dia...sampai at certain level "no one can replace me!"..tp alih2 kenapa skrg nie dia ngaku dia lgsg xdpt bg ak hati dia dalam sekelip mata...apa dosa aku dh buat???ak ni terkontang-kanting teringtkan dia byk sgt kenangan dia dgn aku walaupon ktorg baru kenal n rapat...tp suma tu amat bernilai bagi aku...ak hargai diri dia lebih dari segalanya...ak xpenah minx balasan...

ni bukan tmpt ak nk burukan sesapa ke ape tapi sebagai manusia biasa ak perlukan something tok aku releasekn prasaan aku nie...at time dia ada mslah,sakit,ssh senang...ak la tmpt dia...suap dia mkn ubat lap air mata dia time dia nanges...tp this time when ak ada mslah yang amat berat nie ak kena hadapi sorg2...dia tah ke mana malah layan aku umpama mcm xpenah kenal aku..ak bukan nk minx balasan ap yang aku dh buat tp sifat kesian tolak ansur suma xda...ak terkilan sgt2....sedangkan ak dh niat if ak dpt bersama dia aku akn jdi dia teman hidup aku terus..ak dh xnak pikir lgi psl2 pompuan nie..tp keadaan yg mcm nie buat ak lagi serabut....ak ikhlas tok ambik dia tros sebab aku taw dia mampu bg aku happiness...mmg ak xsalahkan dia ap yang jdi mgkin sebab masa xsesuai tp cara dia tok pertahankan aku lgsg xdak...im so disappointed!

ak dh tlg sedaya upaya tok buat dia lupakan ap yang dh jadi..tp dia sendiri xdak usaha tok lupakan..it's fact yang aku kena terima dia hanya terima aku dimulut...baru aku tahu...dia cple dgn aku tp hati dia lgsg bukan tok aku..hanya ckp dimulut tp di hati berbeza...sgt2 berbeza!tp layanan dia cukup sempurna...ak xkisah kalau dia xdpt syg aku sepertimana aku sayang dia..ak cuma xnak dia kecewa lagi and aku nak dia hidup bahagia xnk dia sakit tok kali ke2 walaupon aku involve sekali tok disakiti....sebab tuh org tua2 ckp "pilihla org yang syg kite dari yg kite syg dia" ak xkisah walaupon aku syg dia lebih dari dia syg aku...sebab ak nk hidup dia terjamin..shes nice girl and setia..bg ak ssh tok ak nk jmpe pompuan mcm dia...sb tuh ak xnak lpaskan dia senang2...apepon terjadi lepas nie akn tros jaga n tggu dia selagi aku mampu..nothing for me to delete psl post ak sebelum2 nie...biala gmbr dia kekal dlm blog nie selagi tuh dia kekal dalam hati aku...ak ttp tggu dia......

bittersweet~!

today is the last day actually before im going back to perak for sem's break. woooowwWWW 4MONTHS kot cuti...apela aku nk buat cuti ni and for sure working!must! nk topup sikit kasi poket cekang then i've my own plan..yezza! hope this will become reality..smlm paper last soga ak yang ak rasa tension tahap gaban gila nk jawab~ compared to all the papers rasenye paper soga la aku agak down main jawab je hopefully ok la...so besok pagi aku dah nk blah tinggal kan shah alam ni tuk sementara waktu with her and selama tu jgkla ak terpaksa berpisah sekejap dgn org yang ak baru kenal sem nie....=) here she is.....^_^

politics&soga o_O

we went through everything together no matter how hard it is..im always be besides you whenever you need me...but for this coming for months hope nothing will happen and i dare to say that i put my trust on you because i know who you are...distance is not a big deal for me..as long each of us taking care of each other....thanks for all the moment we spent together this semester even though just for a while but you make me so happy though~! can't wait for next sem to walk in the life with you cik adik comel!=) LOVE YOU ALWAYS.....

xo~jimzfirzia~xo

look out point night...

tonight is quite happening for me with friends...thanx for taking me there and wow its awesome night bebeh~! for the fers time selalu tgk dramatv jekan...haha~! then tonight i can see all the contents thats what we called KL...its nice place to be there. i wish to be there someday maybe...with you guys again maybe for reunion and for sure when i was there iwas thinking of you...i wish to bring you there someday and im gonna show you how nice the place is.......

btw, at the time im enjoying my meal tonight you are still running around in my head..thinking of you~! thinking of ur health which caused me very terribly afraid.i will pray so that you will recover soon syg...thanks for calling me tonight! i appreciate it..can't wait to see you tomorrow my syg..day by day myheart is very close to you may this will last long...

tomorrow i have to start to prepare my last paper for SOGA..haha! seems like very uneasy with this topic LOL..dh tinggal lama stdy then expect nk buka buku balik..alahai.....MALASNYA!!! i hope get do it well time final nti....wish me luck`~!

~010511~

today is the day....
where the happiness that i've been searching for.....
ABSOLUTELY be mine~!!!
i will try my best to create everything and be the best to you....
not only now but insyaALLAH in the future too...
i will never neglecting you and i will do what i've promised to you....
you are so priceless and valuable to me......
thanks for giving me a chance a valueable chance....
really hope for your guidance and love...
may ALLAH protects your heart from unwanted things...
at the end of this and the reality life.....
i would like to say this to you.......
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART....
MAY THIS RELATIONSHIP WILL LAST FOREVER....
AMIN.....
=)