penat la gile..

gua penat mak aiii keja bai..tuh la orang kata belajaq tamao~!hahaha...anyway its such an experience for me..yeah for the first time im working derr..i need to wake up early in the morning everyday!!!!!! then it will finish at 7pm nasib badan....haha! but for me its ok..ak rasa bertuah sebab ak dapat gaji pon highest compare to others padahal baru je keja nk kata kedai bapak aku mmg xla..then balik pulak awal gile la yeop! kul7 bai...org lain smpai ke mlm ak kuar umah matahari nak naik then balik uma pon ada lagi matahari xde la sedih sgt..hoho!

but the happy time is so sure not last long i need to stop from working because of some reasons that i could not avoided..mungkin rezeki ak sampai kat situ je kot...xpela ini semua qada and qadar ^_^

getting mylife busy was awesome actually because this is the way MAYBE to forget what had happened but yeah deep inside you are still alive..i can't lie to my self..even though i want to run away from you, i can't because im so sure you don't have anybody to talk to..yeah even though i've to accompany to talk about the same thing over and over again, it does not matter as long you feel relieve...maybe i can't do anything and i will leave it on time to decide...im not saying that im a good guy but im just doing what i think i should! im just pity on you i can't leave you alone...

after all, i have to spend my time to do sooOOO many things during this month! final wind orchestra...vacation with my BEST FRIEND and lastly going to my brother house to spend sometime there to release my stress and remembering all those memories in penang...haha! so i wish i will do all these job smoothly and tomorrow is money timeeeee!!!!! xD

chiowWWW xD

experiences and lessons...

yeah long time i keep on silent..just to forget it for sure la and doing something else rather than remembering those who are very disrespectful and ungrateful...starts to get busy with myself and alhamdulillah i've work now! huhu...even this is the second job i get but happily i wanna say that this is the job that i can stand on without all those fucking shit people who are always taking for granted on others..! thnx to Allah for making mylife easier to go through all these things in my life...

slowly insyaAllah i will try to forget her but the memories remain...i can't lie to my self because that's the honest thing ever i've done towards someone...so im just praying that i will get the best and Allah will give me the best in continuing my life now and here after!amin......i will try to accept the fates as what they are..no more love no more sacrifice no more pain hopefully...i will certainly at this moment to say that im totally OFF with all this thing!!! lets the time decides for me to open it...i will never put any hopes because i know 'HOPE IS THE FIRST STEP OF DESPAIR' thnx am for the remainder! xD i will take it for the whole of my life...

helping people is a must! and Allah maha kaya to help us back even if it takes quite sometime for us to know..but as for me and newly experience it...helped mysister to get job and the next day i got an offer from this company..im so lucky! first because i never expected for that job because they have enough workers to do all those jobs...haha~! i can even get the job without undergo any interview!=) alhamdulilah and its true what people said...if we take a good care our "responsibilities" our life will be better and easier!see how God can help us in our life..just have faith in our chess..=)

now im moving on with my own life with mom only..dad??? forget about him la because for me he never exist in our family! he's just drop by here for me and useless to us....i've to say this because he never appreciate what i've gave to him! permission to be with us..i'm holding the last word..let God decides what the best...I can't get long with him anymore!

till now, i'm quite recover from the nightmare! yes very2 nightmare..haha! keep on smiling but ddep inside is like a hell..thnx for all the advice i got to wake me up from this hard time in my life..till now bye!

babe...

babe...belajar pandai2 pon kalau xreti nk beza mana baik mana buruk pun xguna doe..

babe...kalau dah benda terang lagi bersuluh pun kau nak terhegeh2 xpayahla babe...nti kau sakit hati kau ngadu kat org..last2 org tuh pon sakit hati dgn kau..

babe...kau dh besar dh matang dh leh beranak dah pon,xkn benda simple pon kau xreti nk handle??member berbuih2 mulut nasihat pon xfhm bahasa ke???

babe...kau ssh mmg mber akn tlg, tapi ssh yang kau dpt tuh sebab diri kau sendiri rsenye xde sape nk tlg kau pun..SEBAB KAU SENDIRI XDE EFFORD NK BRUBAH...

babe...semayang tungging terbalik pun klau dosa kau bertimbun dgn mber2 doa nangis air mata darah pun xgune..dosa dgn manusia setel ngn manusia dgn Allah leh la kau taubat nasuha...

babe...klau ckp mak bapak pun kau xikut tambahla ckp mber2 kau ikut sgt ke?so pasni kau hadapla ape jadi! kau yang pilih nk sgt ke situ..

babe...ak dh nasihat kau semua nye nk bg kau sedar dan pikir mana yang patot kau buat,tapi klau cm nie prangai kau...pegi jahanam la..penat kau tau x nasihat org..tambah2 nasihat orang xfaham bahasa mcm kau ni babe!

babe...ada mata pandang la...ada akal pikirla...jangan jadi manusia yang kufur nikmat..Allah dh bagi segala perfect so guna la betul2..sb kau xguna dgn betula kau ssh...pastuh mintak tlg dgn tuhan...kau sendiri x tolong diri kau!

CHOW!!!

why!!!

why i can't even forget her???

why you are always in my mind???

am i too obsess???

i've tried everything possible to forget her but why???

why am i so stupid to miss someone who never care about me???

why she did this to me???

why did she willing to put me in HELL like this!!!???

i'm miserable to death you know!!!!!!

why don't you just kill me directly???

oh shit...this is too shit~!!!!

it has been nearly one month but i'm still the same...

never feel better and i'm too tired for this~!!!!

i never felt like this before......

whats wrong that i've done???

Oh God please help me...

i keep on praying to make me feel much better...

everyday i keep on doing the same thing again again and again...

i know what had happened there must be reason behind it and surely good things...

but i hope i will know about it asap...

i can't stand to be like this much longer....

i'm too weak to face this God...

i need Ur guidances to lead me into a correct path....

i was thinking why i need to meet someone and be mine and later i need to let her go....

avoid me from doing such stupid things ya Allah...

i've no one else to depend on....

only You place for me to ask for miracles and forgiveness for the things that i've done wrong....

=(

sorry guys

aku nak mintak maaf kat sesiapa yang mungkin tak suka dengan ape yang aku buat skrg nie..berbaik balik dgn someone yang penah buat tuuuutttt dgn aku..ak bukan la tunjuk baik tapi rasanya biala...ak tak nak create musuh skrg nie...this is not the time for me to create it bcoz there will be a lot of enemies in the future maybe...so now is the time to create network ONLY...

if she or he wanted to be my enemy silakan...aku xhalang and aku amat mengalu-alukan jela=) ak akan hadap sekor2 lau itu yang dia nak...ak bole tolerate lgi kalau org tuh cakap baik2 dgn aku..walaupon org tuh buat paling gila kat aku tgk keadaan laa..tipula lau ak ckp ak xsayang dia mmg ak sayang dia xdinafikan..just let the time settle it...=) but i will try to forget everything from now if it's not fated for me...

SORRY GUYS~

bila dipikir2kan balik???

haa betul la tu bila dipikir2kan balik..sedih memg la sedih lawak pon ade jgk...ade patot pompuan leh buat hal ngn laki?selalu laki buat hal ade la aku dgq tp skg nie yg jadik kat aku bnda lain laa plak~~! bhahahaha...Xkisahla Allah tu ade.Ok laa ni ak dh malaih nk sedih2 doe time dulu tuh mmg ak sedih sebab terkejut gila la baban...mmg sumpah meletop bai umpama hati aku ni kena bom ngn C4..lau xcaya tnye c4 lau sapa2 kenai ...cmtuh laa remuk dia....hmmm..nk kata ak berdendam dgn dia rasanya xdak kot sebab walaupon dia buat ak cm nie tp since setel elok2 ak leh tolerate...bole tolerate lagi???hmm..ikutkan hati nak jgk aku jadi mat SPLASHER yg masuk berita..dorg naik EX5 ak pon ada moto EX5..leh join tumpang sekaki la????bhahahahaha....

xbaik kenakan org walaupon org dh kenakan kta teruk cmana sebab ak rasa kita ni kecik ja pon walaupon ak big boss tp Allah tu je ade hak nk hukum sape2 makhluk dia yg xbtoi and ak selalu minx dia bg ak petunjuk kalau ak dijalan yg salah cm tuh jgkla tok sape2 yg berada dijalan yg songsang semoga pulang ke pangkal jalan...yes wlaupon mcm2 ak kena kali ni and this is the worst thing ever~!!! tp ak xmarah sgt sb ak dah aim tok jadi somebody and Allah sentiasa ada ngn org yg sabar kan...dia pon banyak ajar ak bnda2 kebaikan and aku xakan sesekali lupa segala jasa baik dia kat aku...

kalau dulu mmg ak kaki ngamuk gila la sikit2 je nk maki hamun yes alhamdulillah skrg nie ak sendiri rasa something yg ubah ak dari buat bnda2 tuh...and skg nieak doakan yg terbaik tok dia walaupon mgkin dia xpenah doa kat aku ke ataw mgkin oneday dia akn lupakan aku but yg pnting ak nak dia taw yg ape ak dah buat terbaik tok dia and kalau dia leh jmpak lagi baik dari ap yang ak dh buat bagus tok dia...sekian~ -JWP

ours..

now that i've lost everything to you

you say you want to start something new

and it's breaking my heart you are leaving

baby i'm grieving

if you wanna leave take good care

hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

and a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

i'll always remember you like a child girl

you i've seen a lot of what the world can do

and it's breaking my heart in two

cause i never want to see you sad girl

don't be a bad girl

but if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware, yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl, yeah

baby I LOVE YOU, if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get bu just upon a smile,yeah yeah yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl....

~mR.biG~