baca sajala labu...

haaa nk habaq mai baru saja balik dri bercuti seorang diri..p melepak dgn fmily abg aku d penang sana nuuuuu jauh di sana......mula2 mcm best tp last2 best jgklaa.....byk masa spend ngn depa jelaaa kuar mlm konon nk p tgk wayang la..last2 p bantai mcd kat gurney adeymakkk...kenyang belahak laa aku...buuurrrrppp!!!! haha!! then bila depa p keja ak lak g merempitlaa kot penang nuh amek angin sorg2 n lepak tepi pantai mmg mashukkkk gila laaa weh.....untung plak rasa ad fmily duk area sana senang aku nk p tepi pantai melepak amek angin tenangkan hati aku yg tgh hangin that timela...alhamdulillah mmg ak dh berjaya GET RID OF EVERYTHING! nyah hang dari hidup aku...rasanya xguna la duk carik aku dah....penat hang taw duk melayan karenah orang nih....ca hang pikiaq lak prasaan org lain toi dak???sampai bila laa sgt ak leh sabaq bukannya bini aku lagi kan nk jadi suami mithali mmg xlaa...so,aku pon decide tok berambus tros senang crita.......

kat sana jgk ak dpt lubang keja tok bulan posa nie cuma aku jela tataw nk sapu amek ka dak...keja mcm best dpt melepak jeeee ngn mber2 abg aku yg mmg aku taw suma gila!gila!gila! hahahhaa...so maybe all day long during the fasting month i will be there making money....thnx to god coz while i was there..i've met this hamba Allah yang amat baek bagi aku....bole fhm aku walaupon baru kenai tp mcm dh bertahun laa plak dia kenai aku..xpayah ckp byk berbuih2 mulut tp dia dah taw...mmg hebat laaa!!! i salute u babe!!! may this will last long jimmy....xD

so after this ade job jgk tlg abg mber ak tok buat survey mashukkkk kat penang juga maa...perffft!penang jelaa keja aku skrg nie...huahuahua...then can't wait for my buddy for a holiday for such a long time kami xpenah jmpak...22 ekoq p duk UK bak hang..so pasni leh arr melepak ngn depa nie lak...pot besalaaaaa pot byk kenangan n brg2 murah smbil leh jamu mataaaaa...dijamin puaih hati~!!!! jmpak dilain post.......chow!

the return...

it has been 2 years i guess since the last time i went to koleq or orchestra competition..but this time, these how it goes....full of joy and happiness.....

long time no see brah...

with yakuza...

control la bai..

brah sekalian...

those who came...*fido dh balik

buddy..after perform!

OB..

bye2 PICC...

penat la gile..

gua penat mak aiii keja bai..tuh la orang kata belajaq tamao~!hahaha...anyway its such an experience for me..yeah for the first time im working derr..i need to wake up early in the morning everyday!!!!!! then it will finish at 7pm nasib badan....haha! but for me its ok..ak rasa bertuah sebab ak dapat gaji pon highest compare to others padahal baru je keja nk kata kedai bapak aku mmg xla..then balik pulak awal gile la yeop! kul7 bai...org lain smpai ke mlm ak kuar umah matahari nak naik then balik uma pon ada lagi matahari xde la sedih sgt..hoho!

but the happy time is so sure not last long i need to stop from working because of some reasons that i could not avoided..mungkin rezeki ak sampai kat situ je kot...xpela ini semua qada and qadar ^_^

getting mylife busy was awesome actually because this is the way MAYBE to forget what had happened but yeah deep inside you are still alive..i can't lie to my self..even though i want to run away from you, i can't because im so sure you don't have anybody to talk to..yeah even though i've to accompany to talk about the same thing over and over again, it does not matter as long you feel relieve...maybe i can't do anything and i will leave it on time to decide...im not saying that im a good guy but im just doing what i think i should! im just pity on you i can't leave you alone...

after all, i have to spend my time to do sooOOO many things during this month! final wind orchestra...vacation with my BEST FRIEND and lastly going to my brother house to spend sometime there to release my stress and remembering all those memories in penang...haha! so i wish i will do all these job smoothly and tomorrow is money timeeeee!!!!! xD

chiowWWW xD

experiences and lessons...

yeah long time i keep on silent..just to forget it for sure la and doing something else rather than remembering those who are very disrespectful and ungrateful...starts to get busy with myself and alhamdulillah i've work now! huhu...even this is the second job i get but happily i wanna say that this is the job that i can stand on without all those fucking shit people who are always taking for granted on others..! thnx to Allah for making mylife easier to go through all these things in my life...

slowly insyaAllah i will try to forget her but the memories remain...i can't lie to my self because that's the honest thing ever i've done towards someone...so im just praying that i will get the best and Allah will give me the best in continuing my life now and here after!amin......i will try to accept the fates as what they are..no more love no more sacrifice no more pain hopefully...i will certainly at this moment to say that im totally OFF with all this thing!!! lets the time decides for me to open it...i will never put any hopes because i know 'HOPE IS THE FIRST STEP OF DESPAIR' thnx am for the remainder! xD i will take it for the whole of my life...

helping people is a must! and Allah maha kaya to help us back even if it takes quite sometime for us to know..but as for me and newly experience it...helped mysister to get job and the next day i got an offer from this company..im so lucky! first because i never expected for that job because they have enough workers to do all those jobs...haha~! i can even get the job without undergo any interview!=) alhamdulilah and its true what people said...if we take a good care our "responsibilities" our life will be better and easier!see how God can help us in our life..just have faith in our chess..=)

now im moving on with my own life with mom only..dad??? forget about him la because for me he never exist in our family! he's just drop by here for me and useless to us....i've to say this because he never appreciate what i've gave to him! permission to be with us..i'm holding the last word..let God decides what the best...I can't get long with him anymore!

till now, i'm quite recover from the nightmare! yes very2 nightmare..haha! keep on smiling but ddep inside is like a hell..thnx for all the advice i got to wake me up from this hard time in my life..till now bye!

babe...

babe...belajar pandai2 pon kalau xreti nk beza mana baik mana buruk pun xguna doe..

babe...kalau dah benda terang lagi bersuluh pun kau nak terhegeh2 xpayahla babe...nti kau sakit hati kau ngadu kat org..last2 org tuh pon sakit hati dgn kau..

babe...kau dh besar dh matang dh leh beranak dah pon,xkn benda simple pon kau xreti nk handle??member berbuih2 mulut nasihat pon xfhm bahasa ke???

babe...kau ssh mmg mber akn tlg, tapi ssh yang kau dpt tuh sebab diri kau sendiri rsenye xde sape nk tlg kau pun..SEBAB KAU SENDIRI XDE EFFORD NK BRUBAH...

babe...semayang tungging terbalik pun klau dosa kau bertimbun dgn mber2 doa nangis air mata darah pun xgune..dosa dgn manusia setel ngn manusia dgn Allah leh la kau taubat nasuha...

babe...klau ckp mak bapak pun kau xikut tambahla ckp mber2 kau ikut sgt ke?so pasni kau hadapla ape jadi! kau yang pilih nk sgt ke situ..

babe...ak dh nasihat kau semua nye nk bg kau sedar dan pikir mana yang patot kau buat,tapi klau cm nie prangai kau...pegi jahanam la..penat kau tau x nasihat org..tambah2 nasihat orang xfaham bahasa mcm kau ni babe!

babe...ada mata pandang la...ada akal pikirla...jangan jadi manusia yang kufur nikmat..Allah dh bagi segala perfect so guna la betul2..sb kau xguna dgn betula kau ssh...pastuh mintak tlg dgn tuhan...kau sendiri x tolong diri kau!

CHOW!!!

why!!!

why i can't even forget her???

why you are always in my mind???

am i too obsess???

i've tried everything possible to forget her but why???

why am i so stupid to miss someone who never care about me???

why she did this to me???

why did she willing to put me in HELL like this!!!???

i'm miserable to death you know!!!!!!

why don't you just kill me directly???

oh shit...this is too shit~!!!!

it has been nearly one month but i'm still the same...

never feel better and i'm too tired for this~!!!!

i never felt like this before......

whats wrong that i've done???

Oh God please help me...

i keep on praying to make me feel much better...

everyday i keep on doing the same thing again again and again...

i know what had happened there must be reason behind it and surely good things...

but i hope i will know about it asap...

i can't stand to be like this much longer....

i'm too weak to face this God...

i need Ur guidances to lead me into a correct path....

i was thinking why i need to meet someone and be mine and later i need to let her go....

avoid me from doing such stupid things ya Allah...

i've no one else to depend on....

only You place for me to ask for miracles and forgiveness for the things that i've done wrong....

=(

sorry guys

aku nak mintak maaf kat sesiapa yang mungkin tak suka dengan ape yang aku buat skrg nie..berbaik balik dgn someone yang penah buat tuuuutttt dgn aku..ak bukan la tunjuk baik tapi rasanya biala...ak tak nak create musuh skrg nie...this is not the time for me to create it bcoz there will be a lot of enemies in the future maybe...so now is the time to create network ONLY...

if she or he wanted to be my enemy silakan...aku xhalang and aku amat mengalu-alukan jela=) ak akan hadap sekor2 lau itu yang dia nak...ak bole tolerate lgi kalau org tuh cakap baik2 dgn aku..walaupon org tuh buat paling gila kat aku tgk keadaan laa..tipula lau ak ckp ak xsayang dia mmg ak sayang dia xdinafikan..just let the time settle it...=) but i will try to forget everything from now if it's not fated for me...

SORRY GUYS~