unexpressed by words....

to: mybeloved Noor Adila....

this post was made specially for you...

what i want to say here...

there's nothing for you to worry about this relationship at the time you are far from me...

all those gifts will me mycompanion while u r not here with me...

i do what i say...this is mypromise!

i just want you to do ur best in there and i will always pray for ur safety...

im waiting for u here willingly for ur happiness...

will always by ur side when u r in need...

i keep mypromise and i do remember it all the time....

as i remember in every second of mylife...

may this will be a long last relationship...

amin....

thnx for all these gifts...even in the eyes of others it looks simple but not for me....

i appreciate all from urs...

thnx baby......

i love u so much!

xoxo =)

weeeee=P

you are so sweet mydear!

thnx MOM and grateful!

this is what i get along this semester break...working part time everywhere and doing anything just to fill up my time usefully...xsangka dh nk hbes cuti sem yang dulu nya ak expect lama yg bole buat aku gila laa konon2 kan..but now it comes to an end...alhamdulillah cuti sem kali ni byk bnda aku belajar byk bnda jgk aku dpt sama ada dlm hdup atau pon jgk dari segi kebendaan....aku sungguh bersyukur....thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful present..i hope u wont take it anymore from me...

its true everything happened for a reason and now alhamdulillah ive already have it!first of all..this is very100 important gift of mylife..i do really appreciate her n for sure love her! im not saying that im so easy in changing of myheart...but what can i say only God knows...=) thank mydear baby...for all u've done...from zero and now i have everything because all of your support!

myfirst gift!!!=P

second i think!!!

what number it is..u r da fers queen! xD

I IV III 4eva~

and here is the priceless gift with full of effort and moments just to have it...thnx a lot to mama for your support!

inside

outside...all money spent on YOU xD LOL!!!

i do really appreciate everythings!!! alhamdulillah...=)

raya time 2011

hampir sebulan ak berada kat penang keja part time kat sana yang smemey nye mencabar hati perut aku nie..dah la bulan2 puasa lak kan...angkat brg berat2 kemain lgi..tp gaji yang aku dpt mmg worth gila la..kalau ak bgthu kat hang pa pon msti hang pa terkejut..yela gaji part time kalau sebegitu bosar sape xterkejut kan...tp yg pelik nye duit ak p mana????adoi..ahahaha..yang ak ingt duit ak ni byk hbes kat mynew ridelaaaaa...waa syg gila sama dia maaaa...sini sikit sana sikit dh beratus hbes...dulu puluh2 je tuh pon kering kontang jgk...xpe2 kena blaja saving pasni mmg xd dah la buat ape i think KOT..im not gonna put the pic yet sb still dlm pembinaan...haha

so before balik kena laa ulur sikit kt abg ak nie dh lebuh serat lebih sekali ngn anak2 dia lagi duit raya xkn ak nk kedek lak kot...then ak jgk sempat shopping gila sakan kat sana ad pot murah terbaekkkk~!!!hahaha...baju yg ak gagau tuh kalau ikutkan nk amek atas mall mmg beratus..then mlm tuh just rm100 hbes ak leh gagau 5 helai baju kesemua brand LOUIS bro..bkn louiss celup maa..kain jeans pon ada..hah!!! time ni ak nk sebut ap brg padang besaq ka goloq kaa..ni dia pot terbaekkkk ak pasni before raya...hahaha

so skrg ni dh kat kampung shopping rya da mercun stok raya pon ada dah...so nk enjoy sajalaa tinggal sb pasni ak akn merana nk ngadap buku2 law yg bertimbun ngn kes2 ape bnda tah laa..besok is our last day to fast and i wanna this chance to wish selamat hari raya Aidilfitri to all my family members MOM especially my love one noor Adila and beloved member...maaf zahir dan batin...=)

baca sajala labu...

haaa nk habaq mai baru saja balik dri bercuti seorang diri..p melepak dgn fmily abg aku d penang sana nuuuuu jauh di sana......mula2 mcm best tp last2 best jgklaa.....byk masa spend ngn depa jelaaa kuar mlm konon nk p tgk wayang la..last2 p bantai mcd kat gurney adeymakkk...kenyang belahak laa aku...buuurrrrppp!!!! haha!! then bila depa p keja ak lak g merempitlaa kot penang nuh amek angin sorg2 n lepak tepi pantai mmg mashukkkk gila laaa weh.....untung plak rasa ad fmily duk area sana senang aku nk p tepi pantai melepak amek angin tenangkan hati aku yg tgh hangin that timela...alhamdulillah mmg ak dh berjaya GET RID OF EVERYTHING! nyah hang dari hidup aku...rasanya xguna la duk carik aku dah....penat hang taw duk melayan karenah orang nih....ca hang pikiaq lak prasaan org lain toi dak???sampai bila laa sgt ak leh sabaq bukannya bini aku lagi kan nk jadi suami mithali mmg xlaa...so,aku pon decide tok berambus tros senang crita.......

kat sana jgk ak dpt lubang keja tok bulan posa nie cuma aku jela tataw nk sapu amek ka dak...keja mcm best dpt melepak jeeee ngn mber2 abg aku yg mmg aku taw suma gila!gila!gila! hahahhaa...so maybe all day long during the fasting month i will be there making money....thnx to god coz while i was there..i've met this hamba Allah yang amat baek bagi aku....bole fhm aku walaupon baru kenai tp mcm dh bertahun laa plak dia kenai aku..xpayah ckp byk berbuih2 mulut tp dia dah taw...mmg hebat laaa!!! i salute u babe!!! may this will last long jimmy....xD

so after this ade job jgk tlg abg mber ak tok buat survey mashukkkk kat penang juga maa...perffft!penang jelaa keja aku skrg nie...huahuahua...then can't wait for my buddy for a holiday for such a long time kami xpenah jmpak...22 ekoq p duk UK bak hang..so pasni leh arr melepak ngn depa nie lak...pot besalaaaaa pot byk kenangan n brg2 murah smbil leh jamu mataaaaa...dijamin puaih hati~!!!! jmpak dilain post.......chow!

the return...

it has been 2 years i guess since the last time i went to koleq or orchestra competition..but this time, these how it goes....full of joy and happiness.....

long time no see brah...

with yakuza...

control la bai..

brah sekalian...

those who came...*fido dh balik

buddy..after perform!

OB..

bye2 PICC...

penat la gile..

gua penat mak aiii keja bai..tuh la orang kata belajaq tamao~!hahaha...anyway its such an experience for me..yeah for the first time im working derr..i need to wake up early in the morning everyday!!!!!! then it will finish at 7pm nasib badan....haha! but for me its ok..ak rasa bertuah sebab ak dapat gaji pon highest compare to others padahal baru je keja nk kata kedai bapak aku mmg xla..then balik pulak awal gile la yeop! kul7 bai...org lain smpai ke mlm ak kuar umah matahari nak naik then balik uma pon ada lagi matahari xde la sedih sgt..hoho!

but the happy time is so sure not last long i need to stop from working because of some reasons that i could not avoided..mungkin rezeki ak sampai kat situ je kot...xpela ini semua qada and qadar ^_^

getting mylife busy was awesome actually because this is the way MAYBE to forget what had happened but yeah deep inside you are still alive..i can't lie to my self..even though i want to run away from you, i can't because im so sure you don't have anybody to talk to..yeah even though i've to accompany to talk about the same thing over and over again, it does not matter as long you feel relieve...maybe i can't do anything and i will leave it on time to decide...im not saying that im a good guy but im just doing what i think i should! im just pity on you i can't leave you alone...

after all, i have to spend my time to do sooOOO many things during this month! final wind orchestra...vacation with my BEST FRIEND and lastly going to my brother house to spend sometime there to release my stress and remembering all those memories in penang...haha! so i wish i will do all these job smoothly and tomorrow is money timeeeee!!!!! xD

chiowWWW xD

experiences and lessons...

yeah long time i keep on silent..just to forget it for sure la and doing something else rather than remembering those who are very disrespectful and ungrateful...starts to get busy with myself and alhamdulillah i've work now! huhu...even this is the second job i get but happily i wanna say that this is the job that i can stand on without all those fucking shit people who are always taking for granted on others..! thnx to Allah for making mylife easier to go through all these things in my life...

slowly insyaAllah i will try to forget her but the memories remain...i can't lie to my self because that's the honest thing ever i've done towards someone...so im just praying that i will get the best and Allah will give me the best in continuing my life now and here after!amin......i will try to accept the fates as what they are..no more love no more sacrifice no more pain hopefully...i will certainly at this moment to say that im totally OFF with all this thing!!! lets the time decides for me to open it...i will never put any hopes because i know 'HOPE IS THE FIRST STEP OF DESPAIR' thnx am for the remainder! xD i will take it for the whole of my life...

helping people is a must! and Allah maha kaya to help us back even if it takes quite sometime for us to know..but as for me and newly experience it...helped mysister to get job and the next day i got an offer from this company..im so lucky! first because i never expected for that job because they have enough workers to do all those jobs...haha~! i can even get the job without undergo any interview!=) alhamdulilah and its true what people said...if we take a good care our "responsibilities" our life will be better and easier!see how God can help us in our life..just have faith in our chess..=)

now im moving on with my own life with mom only..dad??? forget about him la because for me he never exist in our family! he's just drop by here for me and useless to us....i've to say this because he never appreciate what i've gave to him! permission to be with us..i'm holding the last word..let God decides what the best...I can't get long with him anymore!

till now, i'm quite recover from the nightmare! yes very2 nightmare..haha! keep on smiling but ddep inside is like a hell..thnx for all the advice i got to wake me up from this hard time in my life..till now bye!