out of sudden i like this....

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu


Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu


**P/S: semua ni untuk awk taw..bila awk baca awk thulaa sapa diri 'awak' tuh =)

tak betul...

post aku kali ni ikut kan aku rasa mcm nk mencarut2 je semua dari bawah sampai ke atas semua aku nk keluarkan..sial!!! sumpah stress ngn sem nie yg mmg byk keje n tasks yg gila vavi..plus ngn masalah sendiri semua...apelaa siout...sumpah aku leh jadi gila mcm nie.....arini jgk mooting aku dah setel bnda paling aku x expect aku dh siapkan n dh hbes pun sem4... dah tukar cerita bkn benda ni pon yg aku nk cerita sgt sekarang nie...berlambak lagi.....

this is all about me!!!! bukan aku xreti nk handle masalah ke tapi aku kena terima masalah yang bertalu-talu yang xde kesudahan yang aku sendiri kadang2 dh naek fed up nk lalui semua tuh...org kuat cmana pon leh lemah kalau mcm nie...kau org ckp senang tpi yang nk hadap nie la bagai nk gila aku rasa...having a relationship i think is enough just to make my life is really2 a real life...tapi......

aku bengang btol ah ade je yang nk menyibuk siap jadi batu api lagi yang aku panas dia bukan laa sape pun hanya part of family jgk! pffttt...come on get a life laaa.....shit! i waiting for ur turn laaa siout....cukopla aku dah byk masalah kau nk tmbah masalah aku lagi....sial! and for her what can i say im totally depress larh...heish!!!! kdg2 sendiri pon leh ada masalah ni kan masalah org bagi...urghhhhhhhh!!!!!!

dah mai dah...

bukan nk habaq apa pon sebenaqnya saja xtaw nk buat apa...tp ada jgk la nk gebang sikit kat sini kan...minggu depan minggu paling busy and bleh buat aku jadi orang gila bercampur baur dengan sawan...dengan mooting, criminal,land n admin test...walllawehhhhh!!! terbaekkkk..but for this sem i realize that i should start to cover and catch up everything early so that i dont have to burn the midnigt oil LOL...sakit doe! and in fact, alhamdulillah ive started what i suppose to do...

after next week...i have to calm down and prepare myself for the final exam of this semester but bosan gila cuti sem kali ni aku kena stay kat shah alam sebab attachment aku kat mahakamah tinggi shah alam weh! high court tuh..dgr mcm grand je kan..padahal some sort like jadi pecacai educated dalam erti makna lain budak office je...haha! yeah soon or later i will be there too...hope everything will be smooth as planned.

so life aku pun dh ok and i now that ive myown responsibility towards myself and family and for sure HER!!! yes she! since she's new in this life@university life but then again i need to remind myself that ive to support her and give her everything i can in complementing her....just one thing for sure! i gonna make her remember everything for the whole life while she's with me! yezzaa..love u anjeee...muahh!!!

hati tersengih...

Mmmmmm....cmana nk mula aku sendiri tatawlaaa...neway sb happy sgt kot ngn post kali nie...dapt balik cuti duk rumah walaupun aku taw pasni bersepah test ngn delay test pun ade..aishh...tpi xpe..janji dpt balik makan kat umah tido semua n tgk2 mama n mywife...=)) lom ape2 dh jadi wife taw...muahh!! so ari aku balik xsempat nk jmpa tp last sekali jmpa jgk....dan arini jgk once again dpt jmpa sidia......wahh!!! mmg puas hati lepas rindu laaa..2months of waiting her mmg berbaloi2 sgt2laaa...im so glad to have her as mine....i wish she would be mine forever...here all the stories...can't even explain by words...=))

US~!

ORG TGH BUSY!

LALALA~

MONTHS OF WAITING IS WORTH IT!!!

MAY THIS WILL LAST FOREVER..INSYAALLAH!

that's what happened today...so mmg boleyh tidoq lena pejam mata ghapat! cptla masa berjalan nk jmpak dia lagiiiiii..nite alll!!! to mylove love u so much!!!! =))

terima kasih...

tuhan! ketika aku sedang merindukan seseorang kekasih

mengapa seseorang itu selalu jauh dari ku

dan mengapa ketika aku merasa indahnya jatuh cinta

seseorang yang aku cinta dan aku sayangi

itu tidak membalas cinta dan sayang aku

tetapi kini cinta aku sudah terbalas oleh seseorang

yang lebih menyayangi diri ini

dia sempurna buat ku dan dia terbaik buat ku

sungguh sempurna sekali ya Allah, kau telah memberikan seseorang

yang baik dan telah menerima diri ini seadanya dan aku yakin diala yang

akan menjagaku dengan baik

ya Allah aku bersyukur kerana engkau telah memberi peluang

untuk dicintai dan mencintai dia

maaf andaiku tidak berdaya

menjadi seperti yang kamu inginkan

aku hanya insan biasa yang tidak mempunyai kesempurnaan

maaf ku tidak bisa melupakan dirimu, wajahmu, baik tuturmu

segala yang ada padamu akan sentiasa dikalbuku

namun maafkanlah aku sayang

sesungguhna diri ini tidak berniat menyakiti dirimu

aku berharap agar cinta kita kekal abadi

hingga ke akhir nafasku

sesungguhnya aku amat menyayangi dirimu

tuhanku

restuilah hubungan ini dan bukakanlaa pintu hati kedua keluarga

agar merestui hubungan kami selamanya

supaya kasih kami diberkati selalu

ya Allah

seandainya engkau telah takdirkan dia milikku

tercipta buatku selamanya

satukanlah hantinya dan hatiku menjadi satu

titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami

agar kemesraan itu abadi....

emezarahza

semalam yang hangat...

haaa memang pun semalam merupakan hari yang paling hangat dalam hidup...sudah berapa lama tidak kena penyakit lama aku..hambek terbongkang sehari dekat rumah xmakan sehari..minum air kosong pun bole muntah...itu lah M.I.G.R.A.I.A.N...mmg sakit laaa Allah je lah tahu...nasib baek aku ni bukan migrain tegar sekali sekala je jadi...so now im gettin better!=)) thnx for those who are really care and concern about me...mylove for sure la kan syg<3<3<3 and few friends.....

mungkin sebab aku banyak pikir and stress ngn masalah luaran dan dalaman and tido yang aku xjaga selama ni...main ikut suka hati nk tido pukul berapa so pasni korg pun beaware..kalau dah kena sapa pun leh nanges woooo tahan sakit...nk tdo xboleh..nk bangun pun x boleh..dah macam mayat hdup dah aku rasa semalam...then lapa nk makan pun xbole...aiyooooOOO...

arini dh ok sikit dh bole kuar jln2 tgk bolA Semua alhamdulillah.....Btw this time ak nk amek peluang jgk nk ucapkan........

SELAMAT BELAJAR KAT MYLOVE ONE NOORADILA...WELCOME TO NEW WORLD....DO UR BEST AND I WILL ACCOMPANY U AND ALWAYS BESIDE YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME! I PROMISE...INSYAALLAH...=))

SEE U SOON WIFEY~! MUAHHHH XD

gila..

dya buat aku takut kehilangan....

dya jugak buat ak risau semuanya....

dya buat aku cemburu....tanda sygkan!=)

dya buat ak gelisah.....

semua tuh ada dalam benak hati aku sekarang nih...

ak sendiri tataw kenapa leh jadi mcm nie...

ape yang aku tahu..ak nk ucap terima kasih2 bebyk2 kepada mereka yang dh bgi ak rasa n bagi aku kesakitan dalam hidup nie...

semua tuh buat aku serik gila dan terbawak2 sampai sekarang!!!

yes aku mengaku walaupun tgk luaran ok tapi dalaman agak memberi kesan yang amat dalam kat hidup aku nie...ya Allah ak berserah padamu untuk menentukan hala tuju hidup aku selepas ini...

kdg2 aku rasa sgt2 hilang arah xda tujuan apa yang aku buat sekarang nie...

aku hanya mampu tawakal sebab ak sendiri tak tahu apa yang akn terjadi pada masa depan....

satu je permintaan aku...

semoga hari ni dan kedepan adalah lebih baek dari hari2 semalam....

semoga kepada yang baca post aku kali ni dpt doakan aku dunia dan akhirat...

terima kasih semua.......=((

holiday...

besok pagi bermula la ari dimana ak akn pergi tinggalkan shah alam ni buat sementara waktu..yeah cuti!!! cuti mid sem selama seminggu wowo.....xdelaa lame mana pon pejam celik je nti dh nak balik sini balik dah...but the best thing is bila aku balik je sini nanti ad org tuh dah pon masuk belajar n ak xkn lagi sunyi menunggu call dia everyday...and she'll always be with me and we will never far from each other again only God knows well..

Cuti nie jgk mgkin ak xkn on9 so semua aku akan off sementara waktu sebab internet aku. Aku terpaksa suspend sekejap line bb aku so mgkin no more fb ke blog...and for you mylove abg bkn xnak on9 tp umah xd internet but kte bole msg kol n jmpa lgi taw time cuti nti..i will always with you...love u!

so hope besok myjourney akn selamat n dilindungi Allah selalu moga selamat smpai ke rumah tok jmpa family and si dia yang ak cintai! muahhh..love u noorAdila =))

sepantas kilat...

time run so fast...even in the blink of my eyes i couldn't realize it...now is the middle of this sem n yet im still out of nowhere i think..because that's what i feel just now...few days more midsem break plus raya haji celebration and of course MYBABY DAY'S OUT from the HELL..yeah i call it HELL because it waste our time and it has contribute too many problems to us!!! but alhamdulillah she manages to be there even not in full time...but congratulation syg!

dh merapu dah...haha! so few days left for me before this coming semester break..then going back to my beloved hometown and meet mymom n family and alhamdulilah this raya insyaAllah all my siblings will be there and this's the moment that im really waiting for..and for sure wanna spend my timewith my sayang during this break...about one month plus since we last meet..yeah miss her so much!!!

check this out..ive to focus for this coming test and after the break...urghhh...berjebah-jebah test ak nk kena harung but by the way...at that time...I'VE HER BESIDES we'll never be separated again...yes!!!! hehehe =) so i can spend time with her almost everyday like other people...muahahahha....so that's it! salam...sekiannnnnnn...

ikan teRmenung

dya bole buat aku duk termenung sorg2...

dya jgk bole buat ak senyum sorg2 mcm kerang busuk...

dya bole buat ak merajok cm bebudak lapaq ayaq susu...

dya bole buat aku terharu...

dya bole jgk buat aku rindu...

dya jgk buat aku rasa bahagia...

dya buat aku rasa cinta n indah hidup ni...

dya jgk bole buat aku jwa meracau nak gila...

dya selalu ggu jiwa aku...

dya jgk antara yg tlg aku masa ak jatuh dulu...

dya jgk tmpt ak bertengkar selisih faham...

dya jgk buat ak syg sgt kat dia...

dya terlalu bernilai buat aku oiiii...

dya tmpt segalanya...

YA SEMUA NYA PASAL DIA MYLOVE NOOR ADILA! <3

Nk tidoq dulu noh ngntok dah nie...saja merepek tgh2 mlm nie...muahahahahah!BUT im really MEANT IT!!! SEKIAN...=)

tataw nak mrepek apa aih...

hishh lama xmrepek dalam nie..dekat seminggu ada rasanya semua sebab kes mooting nyer submission..alhamdulilah semua dh setel walaupon ad kekecohan yg bole membuat seseorang menyembelih org lain..membunuh antara satu sama lain...maki hamun..tapi nasib baek semua ok la... this time,ak pon off keje sb mslah sikit and just focus tok test jela..

besok cuti raya hindu bak hang...so ak nk kena stdy menarik balik ape yang aku suda tinggal aiyoooOO..oversleep la punya pasal nie...so mau xmau aku kena laa jgk...minggu depan dah nk balik cuti midsem n sekali dengan raya haji...xsabaq aih nk jmpa family aku ngn abg ak semua balik...and for sure bnda paling aku tggu mylove Adila pon balik jgk tok raya n dia pon dh dekat nk kuar kem...

yes so this raya n holiday i wanna spend mytime with family n HER selagi masa ada..ak akn manfaat masa yang ada ni tok org2 yg tersyg bcoz pasni kte tak tahu ape yang akn jadi Allah maha berkuasa kan..so ak akn guna kan kesempatan yang ada ni...dengan pasni aku pon busy dgn assignment n jugk test then prepare tok final...hbes je final nk kena stay shah alam mgkin for attachment kalau aku dapatlaa..minx dah minx dpt xdpt terserah laa..kalau xdpt balik perak laa aku...xpe laa bole jgk duk mkn PREEEE..tuh yg best uh...dpt jgk p jmpak my wifey rindu sgt kat dia...sabaq yeah jimi!

so ak nk tidoq ni dh 2 malam tidoq lambat smpai terburn kelas pagi..oh God...SO GOODNITE PEEPS!..love u wifey Adila!<3

home sweet home...

i just wanna wish you welcome home mydear! hope you gonna have such a wonderful time at home even just for few days...i will accompany and keep my loyalty on you...i will always pray the best for you my dear...so after this u gonna leave ur camp site which gave you so much memories and i hope u can take it as guide in continuing your life outside there...believe me dear, our life out there is very challenging and i will keep be with you all the time to protect you and taking care of you as much as i can...and for relationship, i know there are lot of challenge more to come..i hope we could solve it together! seriously i don't want and afraid of loosing you syg...i know this is the fers time for you to live as a university student and yeah im so proud because you are finally becoming a student same as ur hubby...=)

its too early i think to wish you to the new campus...but i will make sure that i wont miss that moment ok syg!=D now lets spend our time together while you are at home yeah...so after this im gonna be there with you so often in sri iskandar insyaAllah...alhamdulillah kan doa makbul jgak coz dpt kampus yg dekat n senang kte nk jumpa...so pasni we will looking forward together for our next plan ok syg...i want you to focus on study and i will help you in many things you want as much as possible insyaAllah! i will never let you down as you helped me out those days when im in hell...thnx so much syg! have a safe journey mylove....love u so much NOORADILA! =)

hurricane...

its like a hurricane in my chest now when someone told me that i can't do this and that....without a reasonable reasons...its wondering me about two days ago until now! and im waiting for the call to clarify everything but im frustrated and disappointed!..maybe she's not recognize and realize what she said actually turn me like in the hell! yes im in the hell now..!!! cannot doing anything calmly..JIWA AKU KACAU gila...what's actually going on huh??? is she wants to just create a problem with me??? come on la..i dont want to think in that way because i know it'll become worst..it is not wrong for us to adore someone but the problem rise when you entertain that bullshit who are adoring you...check it out~you should know who are you babe..

chiow....

penat???serabut????

ouh keje part time while u are studying...aku dh part 4 sem paling busy kot then sempat lak aku nak keja kan...dengan gaji yg not bad aku ingt aku boleh saving but then again sampah jgk aku rasa..cukop2 mkn je nk buat ape balik sampai 23 pagi..i dont think ive to sacrifice my studies just to do this unworthy job!!! i resign....aiyooo...

seminggu dh berlalu since our last call and the relationship goes on as well..but my heart and mind keep wondering whether i can afford to believe what had happened will never happen again??? yeah i can't even lie to myself i keep on thinking and trying to prepare myself in case..but this does not mean im not believe on her...but sometime people easily change...then promise is only a promise there's no security at all for me to rely on...after all ive gone thru this where i learned..for u mylove...i do love you so much...i can say that u r out of my expectation and u are the best i ever had seriously...well, i just hope nothing will change even though i know hope is the first step of despair...i tried to put my believe on u everything on u...dats all u should know mylove....all i do is just for our best relationship...

sekian....

penat woooiii...xD

aku penat sebab td drive dari perak..ikutkn mls nk balik...haha!

alhamdulillah semua ok family pon bole laaa happening but just bila ak balik sini for sure mak ak alone kat ruma...moga Allah lindungi dia dari segala bnda buruk n kejahatan orang...amin!

balik rumah kena tlg family aku pulak buat garage baru..mmg gla laa nk angkat tiang konkrit yang sememangnya berat bagai nk gila tuh..then before aku balik td sempat jgkaa siapkan! yes...then siap2 tok bertolak balik ke shah alam smbil kejar masa tok bersama ngn sidia tercinta!=)

masa drive ngntok2 singah stop then kat highway tuh ad yang gatal duk cucuk so ak pon terbakar laa xleh nk padam..haha!dh taw standard jgn carik psl...so ak pon berpuas hati ngn prestasinya yang menyebab dorg makan asap!muahahaha..alhamdulillah....

dpt kol n msg ngn mybaby...best best best! sambil drive pon gayut just wanna spend time with her no matter what...if she could sacrifice a lot of things to me..why not me?=) just for someone that i really care and love...aku sungguh happy sebab wlupon ktorg jauh n xdpt text stiap hari tp dia korban masa kol ak stiap hari dan hari ni sanggup korbankan time rehat yg org lain suma tido tapi dia gunakan masa tok bergayut dgn aku...im too surprise and proud of having you dear! dia langsung xberubah walaupon sedikit itu la benda yang aku dapat rasa with her...the way she talks...manje2...u r sooooOOO priceless for me mama=)

doasemua dh termakbul just hrp ape yang akn jadi lagi lepas ni baek2 belaka...amin!!! i love you..mama-nooradila-family members! =)

orang selalu cakap...

orang selalu cakap jangan jadi bodoh menangis tok perempuan yang even belom lagi jdi isteri kte....

simpan air mata tok parent n isteri kite...

orang selalu ckp kalau bercinta jangan bagi sepenuh hati kita kat org tuh...sb nti kalau kecewa at least we still have a chance to survive...

orang selalu ckp jgn terlalu berhrap dalam hubungan dan apa jugak yang kita buat.......

tapi hakikatnya bila benda tuh terjadi kat diri kita sendiri baru kita tahu ape rasanya..mmg ckp senang laa pakai air liur segala benda senang je kluar tp bila jadi kat diri sendiri...kau xdpt nk halang dari menahan air mata kau dari keluar walau pon kau tahu apa yang kau buat tuh benda bodoh dalam hidup kau..but those are the things yang kte sendiri xdpt nk elak...soal perasaan ni bukan main-main dan teramat sensitif bagi aku..dan jgk surely tok semua orang sb stiap org yg ada kat dunia ni ada perasaan masing2....

aku sendiri dh alami segala yang aku sebut kat atas...ak sendiri penah rasa teramat bodoh dengan ape yang aku buat tapi bg aku itu bukan la alasan tok aku membalas segala perbuatan org kat aku kepada org lain...ak ingt segala pesan mber2 abg2 segalanya laaaa about life....but as time moves on kdg2 kte xleh nk elak dgn perasaan nie...kte sygkn someone dan benda ni semulajadi fitrah manusia bila dah sayang akn sayang sepenuh hati sebab kat situ keikhlasan kte sebenarnya...and bg diri aku sendiri aku tetap sayang kan DIA walaupon ak tkut aku akn kecewa lagi sekali..yaa aku mengaku ak takut jadi lagi sekali walaupon DIA ok sgt2 skrg dan aku harap sampai bila2 DIA akn tetap menjadi diri Dia seperti mana yang aku kenal skrg nih...dan aku harap DIA sayangkan aku camana aku sayangkan DIA..aku taw hidup ni pendek byk lagi bnda lain yang kta perlu isi...tp this is one part of our life jgk...then aku skrg ni berdoa supaya ap yang dah jadi tuh biala berlalu dan xakan berulang lagi..biala ni yang terakhir kalinya ak hadapi semua dugaan nie...

as for family aku...ak sendiri dh xharap apa2 dari family..now seikhlas hati aku aku hanya MAK ak je tmpt aku nk bergantung sebab since ak darjah 3 ak dh mulai hidup aku dgn sendiri...MAK aku laa tmpt aku segala...dia laa abah n dialaa jgk mak...semuanya dari MAK aku seorang diri aku taw betapa ssh hidup dia and ak ingtkn ak dh xd mslah family but then again mslah nie dtg balik...apa yang ada dalam kepala aku skrg nie...dengan masalah family aku skrg...kalau ak pon ada mslah dengan DIA...mmg ak bole jadi gila mmg bebanan yang berat aku rasa...tpi aku bersyukur skrg sebab...ak dah ad 2 org tmpt aku mengadu...MAK dan DIA...Ak sayang dorg lebih dari aku sayangkan diri aku sendiri...ak kalau bole xnak bagi dorg sedih mcm sebelom nie sb ak tahu kisah hidup 2 org yang amat aku sayang....

benda ni laa yang ajar aku tok hidup dengan lebih kuat..Allah nk uji aku sebab nk selalu ak ingt dgn Nya kerana aku taw aku bukan org yang baek alim segala...tapi ape yang aku buat seikhlasnya tok org2 yang aku sayang...aku xnak lagi tgk dorg menangis selagi aku hidup aku akn cuba yang terbaek tok bahagiakan 2 org yang amat berharga dalam hidup aku..sebab bagi aku,kalau dorg xada sekrg ak tataw ak jadi mcmana.....mmg skrg ak tertekan!sangat2 tertekan..thnx for ur call syg....i love them so much!!!

*MAK...

*DIA...MYLOVE NOORADILA

let the past teach me!

thanx to all friends because you guys always be besides me when im in need..

doesn't mean that i need you guys when im in need only but as long as i can breath...

friends are the most precious gift to me because whatever happen they are always there for me...

even its too long we never met but as long i can have a chance, i wanna meet u guys....

its normal friends come and go but there's always true friend for me...i don't want to tell who you are...but i think you can know by yourself..if u treat me like a friend,i will be ur friends but if otherwise..yes i'll be the same too!fair and square...

and for you...who did such a bloody hell to me...thnx!i will remember it for the rest of my life and thanx too for giving me a lesson without any reasonable reasons! even u r forgiven but deep inside to forget...IMPOSSIBLE! i never did such a bullshit things towards you..thats make me can't accept it at all!

for the love one! NOORADILA...no matter what people wanna say about you and me...nothing can destroy us...i know what i'm doing and i feel so grateful because i still have a chance to know a person like..even before this i think there'll be no more such a nice girl out there..but im wrong...there are still nice girls out there and one of them is you! for someone who read my blog...im not type a person who cannot live without girl...but as for me...if someone can appreciate us and taking care of us more than everythings im such a bloody stupid person if i let her go...i know i have faced with so many women and some of them was part of my life and it is normal no one is perfect...so do i...they have a good and a bad side though...but this time i hope i've met with someone who can really secure my life even now and in the future...place where i can depend on..she's my dream girl actually and perhaps she will be like this for the rest of the time..she came to my life seriously at the right time and right place...im so grateful!whatever you guys wanna say...LANTAK KORG..what i want you guys know is that...I KNOW HER MORE THAN WHAT YOU GUYS KNOW...i just hope all comrades can pray for me and i could make this relationship a last long relationship and end up with a marriage insyaAllah...

i know god gives me too much test to test me whether i could survive in my own life..and i know the test were given just to make us appreciate a person that we meet in the future..and those person that ive met they are all good only one person that will remain in myhead such a hell in mylife...but this time, i hope ive met with a real girl..someone who can realize mydream..someone who can share life together....insyaAllah!

!you are mydream girl sayang!

!love u much more!

=))

yes!!! i do miss u...=)

im not gonna write anything long here...just wanna let her know that i miss her damn so much...this is what ive done when im free..haha! just for us syg...i hope you will see this oneday...sign of my love towards you...

love you mydear

yeah...mylove syg!

may this will be a long last relationship between us!!!

huh...terkejut!

bukan nk ckp terkejut tgk hantu ke kene apeke..tp terkejut sb baru sem nie..byk jgk ak kena hadap! dengan subjek2 yang agak tough laa..dgn pelaburan yang sgt tinggi tok my 2nd baby..pfffttt! neaarly 1k jgklaa ak hbes tok dia...hahaha...but its ok kena laa ikat perot sikit nk buat cmner nk kene bajet2 laa skit pasnie...hope semua berjalan dgn baek sem nie...

Terkejut jgk sb nk kene away ngn mylove..since masuk sini ive already have her with me...even we are separated but i dont think our heart also separated...yeah now she's not with me because she's attending something that make her unable to cntct with me 3months!!! Yeah kem sengal yang ak xsuka tuh...mmg dia muda dari aku but her mind makes me attracted and i guess its hard to find someone like her outside there..she can even think like someone older than her!!! u are so priceless baby...whatever happen i do pray agar dia selamat kat sana sihat2 selalu...i just want her know that everyday i keep on thinking about her...i miss all those moment when we were together...her goodnite wish..morning...dh mkn ubat?sehat x?even she said the same thing everyday but for me i never felt it as boring...bOOOO..nope!!! not at all...that's the way she cares bout me..as i care about her....and for sure our love...

now she's not with me but inside she's alive..i do miss her..can't wait for the time she finish up her duty there...i will wait for u here dear...i love u soo much!!! muahhh...EMEZADILA <3

unexpressed by words....

to: mybeloved Noor Adila....

this post was made specially for you...

what i want to say here...

there's nothing for you to worry about this relationship at the time you are far from me...

all those gifts will me mycompanion while u r not here with me...

i do what i say...this is mypromise!

i just want you to do ur best in there and i will always pray for ur safety...

im waiting for u here willingly for ur happiness...

will always by ur side when u r in need...

i keep mypromise and i do remember it all the time....

as i remember in every second of mylife...

may this will be a long last relationship...

amin....

thnx for all these gifts...even in the eyes of others it looks simple but not for me....

i appreciate all from urs...

thnx baby......

i love u so much!

xoxo =)

weeeee=P

you are so sweet mydear!

thnx MOM and grateful!

this is what i get along this semester break...working part time everywhere and doing anything just to fill up my time usefully...xsangka dh nk hbes cuti sem yang dulu nya ak expect lama yg bole buat aku gila laa konon2 kan..but now it comes to an end...alhamdulillah cuti sem kali ni byk bnda aku belajar byk bnda jgk aku dpt sama ada dlm hdup atau pon jgk dari segi kebendaan....aku sungguh bersyukur....thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful present..i hope u wont take it anymore from me...

its true everything happened for a reason and now alhamdulillah ive already have it!first of all..this is very100 important gift of mylife..i do really appreciate her n for sure love her! im not saying that im so easy in changing of myheart...but what can i say only God knows...=) thank mydear baby...for all u've done...from zero and now i have everything because all of your support!

myfirst gift!!!=P

second i think!!!

what number it is..u r da fers queen! xD

I IV III 4eva~

and here is the priceless gift with full of effort and moments just to have it...thnx a lot to mama for your support!

inside

outside...all money spent on YOU xD LOL!!!

i do really appreciate everythings!!! alhamdulillah...=)

raya time 2011

hampir sebulan ak berada kat penang keja part time kat sana yang smemey nye mencabar hati perut aku nie..dah la bulan2 puasa lak kan...angkat brg berat2 kemain lgi..tp gaji yang aku dpt mmg worth gila la..kalau ak bgthu kat hang pa pon msti hang pa terkejut..yela gaji part time kalau sebegitu bosar sape xterkejut kan...tp yg pelik nye duit ak p mana????adoi..ahahaha..yang ak ingt duit ak ni byk hbes kat mynew ridelaaaaa...waa syg gila sama dia maaaa...sini sikit sana sikit dh beratus hbes...dulu puluh2 je tuh pon kering kontang jgk...xpe2 kena blaja saving pasni mmg xd dah la buat ape i think KOT..im not gonna put the pic yet sb still dlm pembinaan...haha

so before balik kena laa ulur sikit kt abg ak nie dh lebuh serat lebih sekali ngn anak2 dia lagi duit raya xkn ak nk kedek lak kot...then ak jgk sempat shopping gila sakan kat sana ad pot murah terbaekkkk~!!!hahaha...baju yg ak gagau tuh kalau ikutkan nk amek atas mall mmg beratus..then mlm tuh just rm100 hbes ak leh gagau 5 helai baju kesemua brand LOUIS bro..bkn louiss celup maa..kain jeans pon ada..hah!!! time ni ak nk sebut ap brg padang besaq ka goloq kaa..ni dia pot terbaekkkk ak pasni before raya...hahaha

so skrg ni dh kat kampung shopping rya da mercun stok raya pon ada dah...so nk enjoy sajalaa tinggal sb pasni ak akn merana nk ngadap buku2 law yg bertimbun ngn kes2 ape bnda tah laa..besok is our last day to fast and i wanna this chance to wish selamat hari raya Aidilfitri to all my family members MOM especially my love one noor Adila and beloved member...maaf zahir dan batin...=)

baca sajala labu...

haaa nk habaq mai baru saja balik dri bercuti seorang diri..p melepak dgn fmily abg aku d penang sana nuuuuu jauh di sana......mula2 mcm best tp last2 best jgklaa.....byk masa spend ngn depa jelaaa kuar mlm konon nk p tgk wayang la..last2 p bantai mcd kat gurney adeymakkk...kenyang belahak laa aku...buuurrrrppp!!!! haha!! then bila depa p keja ak lak g merempitlaa kot penang nuh amek angin sorg2 n lepak tepi pantai mmg mashukkkk gila laaa weh.....untung plak rasa ad fmily duk area sana senang aku nk p tepi pantai melepak amek angin tenangkan hati aku yg tgh hangin that timela...alhamdulillah mmg ak dh berjaya GET RID OF EVERYTHING! nyah hang dari hidup aku...rasanya xguna la duk carik aku dah....penat hang taw duk melayan karenah orang nih....ca hang pikiaq lak prasaan org lain toi dak???sampai bila laa sgt ak leh sabaq bukannya bini aku lagi kan nk jadi suami mithali mmg xlaa...so,aku pon decide tok berambus tros senang crita.......

kat sana jgk ak dpt lubang keja tok bulan posa nie cuma aku jela tataw nk sapu amek ka dak...keja mcm best dpt melepak jeeee ngn mber2 abg aku yg mmg aku taw suma gila!gila!gila! hahahhaa...so maybe all day long during the fasting month i will be there making money....thnx to god coz while i was there..i've met this hamba Allah yang amat baek bagi aku....bole fhm aku walaupon baru kenai tp mcm dh bertahun laa plak dia kenai aku..xpayah ckp byk berbuih2 mulut tp dia dah taw...mmg hebat laaa!!! i salute u babe!!! may this will last long jimmy....xD

so after this ade job jgk tlg abg mber ak tok buat survey mashukkkk kat penang juga maa...perffft!penang jelaa keja aku skrg nie...huahuahua...then can't wait for my buddy for a holiday for such a long time kami xpenah jmpak...22 ekoq p duk UK bak hang..so pasni leh arr melepak ngn depa nie lak...pot besalaaaaa pot byk kenangan n brg2 murah smbil leh jamu mataaaaa...dijamin puaih hati~!!!! jmpak dilain post.......chow!

the return...

it has been 2 years i guess since the last time i went to koleq or orchestra competition..but this time, these how it goes....full of joy and happiness.....

long time no see brah...

with yakuza...

control la bai..

brah sekalian...

those who came...*fido dh balik

buddy..after perform!

OB..

bye2 PICC...

penat la gile..

gua penat mak aiii keja bai..tuh la orang kata belajaq tamao~!hahaha...anyway its such an experience for me..yeah for the first time im working derr..i need to wake up early in the morning everyday!!!!!! then it will finish at 7pm nasib badan....haha! but for me its ok..ak rasa bertuah sebab ak dapat gaji pon highest compare to others padahal baru je keja nk kata kedai bapak aku mmg xla..then balik pulak awal gile la yeop! kul7 bai...org lain smpai ke mlm ak kuar umah matahari nak naik then balik uma pon ada lagi matahari xde la sedih sgt..hoho!

but the happy time is so sure not last long i need to stop from working because of some reasons that i could not avoided..mungkin rezeki ak sampai kat situ je kot...xpela ini semua qada and qadar ^_^

getting mylife busy was awesome actually because this is the way MAYBE to forget what had happened but yeah deep inside you are still alive..i can't lie to my self..even though i want to run away from you, i can't because im so sure you don't have anybody to talk to..yeah even though i've to accompany to talk about the same thing over and over again, it does not matter as long you feel relieve...maybe i can't do anything and i will leave it on time to decide...im not saying that im a good guy but im just doing what i think i should! im just pity on you i can't leave you alone...

after all, i have to spend my time to do sooOOO many things during this month! final wind orchestra...vacation with my BEST FRIEND and lastly going to my brother house to spend sometime there to release my stress and remembering all those memories in penang...haha! so i wish i will do all these job smoothly and tomorrow is money timeeeee!!!!! xD

chiowWWW xD

experiences and lessons...

yeah long time i keep on silent..just to forget it for sure la and doing something else rather than remembering those who are very disrespectful and ungrateful...starts to get busy with myself and alhamdulillah i've work now! huhu...even this is the second job i get but happily i wanna say that this is the job that i can stand on without all those fucking shit people who are always taking for granted on others..! thnx to Allah for making mylife easier to go through all these things in my life...

slowly insyaAllah i will try to forget her but the memories remain...i can't lie to my self because that's the honest thing ever i've done towards someone...so im just praying that i will get the best and Allah will give me the best in continuing my life now and here after!amin......i will try to accept the fates as what they are..no more love no more sacrifice no more pain hopefully...i will certainly at this moment to say that im totally OFF with all this thing!!! lets the time decides for me to open it...i will never put any hopes because i know 'HOPE IS THE FIRST STEP OF DESPAIR' thnx am for the remainder! xD i will take it for the whole of my life...

helping people is a must! and Allah maha kaya to help us back even if it takes quite sometime for us to know..but as for me and newly experience it...helped mysister to get job and the next day i got an offer from this company..im so lucky! first because i never expected for that job because they have enough workers to do all those jobs...haha~! i can even get the job without undergo any interview!=) alhamdulilah and its true what people said...if we take a good care our "responsibilities" our life will be better and easier!see how God can help us in our life..just have faith in our chess..=)

now im moving on with my own life with mom only..dad??? forget about him la because for me he never exist in our family! he's just drop by here for me and useless to us....i've to say this because he never appreciate what i've gave to him! permission to be with us..i'm holding the last word..let God decides what the best...I can't get long with him anymore!

till now, i'm quite recover from the nightmare! yes very2 nightmare..haha! keep on smiling but ddep inside is like a hell..thnx for all the advice i got to wake me up from this hard time in my life..till now bye!

babe...

babe...belajar pandai2 pon kalau xreti nk beza mana baik mana buruk pun xguna doe..

babe...kalau dah benda terang lagi bersuluh pun kau nak terhegeh2 xpayahla babe...nti kau sakit hati kau ngadu kat org..last2 org tuh pon sakit hati dgn kau..

babe...kau dh besar dh matang dh leh beranak dah pon,xkn benda simple pon kau xreti nk handle??member berbuih2 mulut nasihat pon xfhm bahasa ke???

babe...kau ssh mmg mber akn tlg, tapi ssh yang kau dpt tuh sebab diri kau sendiri rsenye xde sape nk tlg kau pun..SEBAB KAU SENDIRI XDE EFFORD NK BRUBAH...

babe...semayang tungging terbalik pun klau dosa kau bertimbun dgn mber2 doa nangis air mata darah pun xgune..dosa dgn manusia setel ngn manusia dgn Allah leh la kau taubat nasuha...

babe...klau ckp mak bapak pun kau xikut tambahla ckp mber2 kau ikut sgt ke?so pasni kau hadapla ape jadi! kau yang pilih nk sgt ke situ..

babe...ak dh nasihat kau semua nye nk bg kau sedar dan pikir mana yang patot kau buat,tapi klau cm nie prangai kau...pegi jahanam la..penat kau tau x nasihat org..tambah2 nasihat orang xfaham bahasa mcm kau ni babe!

babe...ada mata pandang la...ada akal pikirla...jangan jadi manusia yang kufur nikmat..Allah dh bagi segala perfect so guna la betul2..sb kau xguna dgn betula kau ssh...pastuh mintak tlg dgn tuhan...kau sendiri x tolong diri kau!

CHOW!!!

why!!!

why i can't even forget her???

why you are always in my mind???

am i too obsess???

i've tried everything possible to forget her but why???

why am i so stupid to miss someone who never care about me???

why she did this to me???

why did she willing to put me in HELL like this!!!???

i'm miserable to death you know!!!!!!

why don't you just kill me directly???

oh shit...this is too shit~!!!!

it has been nearly one month but i'm still the same...

never feel better and i'm too tired for this~!!!!

i never felt like this before......

whats wrong that i've done???

Oh God please help me...

i keep on praying to make me feel much better...

everyday i keep on doing the same thing again again and again...

i know what had happened there must be reason behind it and surely good things...

but i hope i will know about it asap...

i can't stand to be like this much longer....

i'm too weak to face this God...

i need Ur guidances to lead me into a correct path....

i was thinking why i need to meet someone and be mine and later i need to let her go....

avoid me from doing such stupid things ya Allah...

i've no one else to depend on....

only You place for me to ask for miracles and forgiveness for the things that i've done wrong....

=(

sorry guys

aku nak mintak maaf kat sesiapa yang mungkin tak suka dengan ape yang aku buat skrg nie..berbaik balik dgn someone yang penah buat tuuuutttt dgn aku..ak bukan la tunjuk baik tapi rasanya biala...ak tak nak create musuh skrg nie...this is not the time for me to create it bcoz there will be a lot of enemies in the future maybe...so now is the time to create network ONLY...

if she or he wanted to be my enemy silakan...aku xhalang and aku amat mengalu-alukan jela=) ak akan hadap sekor2 lau itu yang dia nak...ak bole tolerate lgi kalau org tuh cakap baik2 dgn aku..walaupon org tuh buat paling gila kat aku tgk keadaan laa..tipula lau ak ckp ak xsayang dia mmg ak sayang dia xdinafikan..just let the time settle it...=) but i will try to forget everything from now if it's not fated for me...

SORRY GUYS~

bila dipikir2kan balik???

haa betul la tu bila dipikir2kan balik..sedih memg la sedih lawak pon ade jgk...ade patot pompuan leh buat hal ngn laki?selalu laki buat hal ade la aku dgq tp skg nie yg jadik kat aku bnda lain laa plak~~! bhahahaha...Xkisahla Allah tu ade.Ok laa ni ak dh malaih nk sedih2 doe time dulu tuh mmg ak sedih sebab terkejut gila la baban...mmg sumpah meletop bai umpama hati aku ni kena bom ngn C4..lau xcaya tnye c4 lau sapa2 kenai ...cmtuh laa remuk dia....hmmm..nk kata ak berdendam dgn dia rasanya xdak kot sebab walaupon dia buat ak cm nie tp since setel elok2 ak leh tolerate...bole tolerate lagi???hmm..ikutkan hati nak jgk aku jadi mat SPLASHER yg masuk berita..dorg naik EX5 ak pon ada moto EX5..leh join tumpang sekaki la????bhahahahaha....

xbaik kenakan org walaupon org dh kenakan kta teruk cmana sebab ak rasa kita ni kecik ja pon walaupon ak big boss tp Allah tu je ade hak nk hukum sape2 makhluk dia yg xbtoi and ak selalu minx dia bg ak petunjuk kalau ak dijalan yg salah cm tuh jgkla tok sape2 yg berada dijalan yg songsang semoga pulang ke pangkal jalan...yes wlaupon mcm2 ak kena kali ni and this is the worst thing ever~!!! tp ak xmarah sgt sb ak dah aim tok jadi somebody and Allah sentiasa ada ngn org yg sabar kan...dia pon banyak ajar ak bnda2 kebaikan and aku xakan sesekali lupa segala jasa baik dia kat aku...

kalau dulu mmg ak kaki ngamuk gila la sikit2 je nk maki hamun yes alhamdulillah skrg nie ak sendiri rasa something yg ubah ak dari buat bnda2 tuh...and skg nieak doakan yg terbaik tok dia walaupon mgkin dia xpenah doa kat aku ke ataw mgkin oneday dia akn lupakan aku but yg pnting ak nak dia taw yg ape ak dah buat terbaik tok dia and kalau dia leh jmpak lagi baik dari ap yang ak dh buat bagus tok dia...sekian~ -JWP

ours..

now that i've lost everything to you

you say you want to start something new

and it's breaking my heart you are leaving

baby i'm grieving

if you wanna leave take good care

hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

and a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

i'll always remember you like a child girl

you i've seen a lot of what the world can do

and it's breaking my heart in two

cause i never want to see you sad girl

don't be a bad girl

but if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware, yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl, yeah

baby I LOVE YOU, if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get bu just upon a smile,yeah yeah yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl....

~mR.biG~

memories remain....

yeah after all ive been thru in this life...life must go on~! fact is a fact no matter how bitter it is or how sweet it is...i have to accept it..betul kata orang kalau dalam hidup ni nak semua manis bukan life laa kan..kalau ada yang pahit tuh at least someday u have something to share or to talk about...im slowly recover from what u did and i will try to forget everythings..for me, maybe Allah wants you to be a better person someday and so do i...yeah learn from the past xrugi ape2..just jgn ulang kesalahan yang kite dah buat and one thing jangan sesekali menganiaya orang yang telah berbuat kebaikan kepada kita..

orang selalu kata kalau kita baik sangat akn ada orang yang akn pijak kepala kita...yeap mmg betul dh lumrah manusia but aku diri aku. Ak akn troskan ape yang aku rasa selama nie bnda tuh patut tok aku buat and walau apapon terjadi x bermaksud tok aku berubah menjadi someone yang too bad~! kta hnya manusia and hnya mampu berdoa dia Allah saje la yang hukum sape2 yg belom sedar yang dia nie hanya manusia kerdil and Allah boleh je nak amek nyawa dia anytime..walaupon baru sikit rasanya ape yang Allah uji aku skrg nie aku dha rasa berat gila kot....macamana la aku nk hadapi lau dugaan yang lagi besar dari nie...

kita akn byk lagi akn merasa kehilangan dalam hidup kita..aku anggap ini adala ujian tok aku hadapai ujian yang ke depan yang belum tahu lagi mcmana...tp ak sentiasa berdoa agar Allah hindarkan aku dari ujian2 yang xmampu aku lalui and supaya Allah tak ambil org2 yg aku sayang dalam masa yang terdekat..sebab aku taw suma yang hidup akan mati someday cuma kta tataw ja bila..walau camana pon ak bersedia lom tentu ak akn berani hadapi bnda nie lau Allah nk uji aku..Hnya Allah tahu ape yang terbaik untuk aku..semoga segala doa2 aku kepadaNya dimakbulkan...amin.....

wake up~

pada mula mmg ak rasa serba xkena lepas ape yang dah jdik kat aku time nie...but as far as ak lalui bnda nie walaupon sorg2 kat umah tapi aku tetap xrsa sorg sebab x putus2 concern dari member2 aku yang amek kisah ape jadik kat aku kat sini walaupn jauh dgn korg tpi korg mmg da best..thank sebab korg terlalu amek berat psl aku wlaupon korg penah nasihat aku dulu tp yela org kata sebabkan sifat someone tuh kte jdi so unpredictable and aku take that risk nk harung jgk but end up mcm nie la...aku sendri pon xsangka bnda nie lej jdi sampai mcm nie..walaupon rasa sakit nie aku sorg yang rasa tp dengan ada korg buat aku bole jgk face it..thank korg...

at same time tanpa aku sedar Allah ni nk tunjuk jgk ape salah aku..bnda yang xpatot aku buat..rupanya bnde tuh salah..someone yang ak penah sayang dulu and penah tok lupakan dia walaupon dh jadi kawan tp ak xpenah appreciate dia as kawan...since ape yang jadi ni dia sendiri contact ak and terlalu amek berat dgn aku...mgkin apa yang jdi ni balasan apa aku dah buat kat dia...sori dats mybad...walaupon kta berpisah bukan sebab salah sapa tp atas family xpatot rasanya aku abaikan dia as kawan...she's nice girl i ever met and no one can beat you so far...aku berani ckp sebab aku kenal dia..walau cmana pon ak dah buat dia still amek berat kat aku amek kisah aku apa jadi kat aku..untung sapa dapat dia...boleh diharap and independence! i wish da best for your life RITA....

once again thank to you all my friends for all ur concern apa yang dh jadi kat aku...xperlu kite salahkan sape2 sebab mgkin ni ujian dari Allah tok aku...ak perlukan korg dalam hidup aku doe..tok bg aku support in anything aku buat...thanks a lot to mymom sebab always dengar masalah aku..and so far ak makin recover...special thanks to:

-my beloved mama-

-faliqizhamcrabnizamlutfeeadam n others sek8 geng-

-rita-

thanks alot....

cerita aku...

well ak sendiri dah speechless dh tataw nk ckp ape..mulut ak kelu nk berkata hati aku mmg berkecai mcm gelas kaca jatuh kat lantai berselerak...tp ak terpaksa terima keperitan ni alone...she's no longer with me..tp ak xnk salah kan sapa2 mgkin Allah nk uji cinta aku kat dia...and ni jgk ujian tok dia sama da dia akn buat cmana dia penah rasa dulu tok bgi aku rasa..yes! nampak dunia ni mcm xadilkan..tp ak percaya setiap yang jadi ad hikmah dia....

perpisahan ak dgn dia bukan la diminta..semua nie mmg takdir since permintaan keluarga dia ak sendiri terima dgn hati yg terbuka sebab ak harapkan yang terbaik untuk dia..bukan sb family xdpt nk terima ak tp sebab dorg risaukan anak sorg yg satu2 nya pompuan takut kecewa sekali lagi..ak xdpt buat ap2 ak hnya terpksa turuti walaupun ak akn tanggung siksa sakit dalam hati aku...semua yang terjadi ni ak terima dgn hati yg terbuka and ak sanggup jdi mangsa keadaan and ak xkisah la walaupon dalam masa ak kenal sekejap sgt jnji dia happy dgn aku..and dpt hbes kan sem3 dgn sempurna xkisahla walau pon aku jdi bounce guy...yeah this is not the first time....in life nothing to lose..good deed will replied with good deed..insyaAllah...

kepada org yg penah lukakan hati dia kau patot rasa bersyukur sebab kau dpt kasih syg dia yg suci and murni tapi kau dh sia2kan dia...ak xkisah ak kena tanggung akibat dari perbuatan kau...ak rela as long her life terjamin...aku hanya terkilan sebab org yang aku syg leh tggl aku tanpa sebarang kata..dia penah ngaku dia syg ak and dh sedia bagi ak hati dia walaupon xsepenuh aku mengerti keadaan dia...sampai at certain level "no one can replace me!"..tp alih2 kenapa skrg nie dia ngaku dia lgsg xdpt bg ak hati dia dalam sekelip mata...apa dosa aku dh buat???ak ni terkontang-kanting teringtkan dia byk sgt kenangan dia dgn aku walaupon ktorg baru kenal n rapat...tp suma tu amat bernilai bagi aku...ak hargai diri dia lebih dari segalanya...ak xpenah minx balasan...

ni bukan tmpt ak nk burukan sesapa ke ape tapi sebagai manusia biasa ak perlukan something tok aku releasekn prasaan aku nie...at time dia ada mslah,sakit,ssh senang...ak la tmpt dia...suap dia mkn ubat lap air mata dia time dia nanges...tp this time when ak ada mslah yang amat berat nie ak kena hadapi sorg2...dia tah ke mana malah layan aku umpama mcm xpenah kenal aku..ak bukan nk minx balasan ap yang aku dh buat tp sifat kesian tolak ansur suma xda...ak terkilan sgt2....sedangkan ak dh niat if ak dpt bersama dia aku akn jdi dia teman hidup aku terus..ak dh xnak pikir lgi psl2 pompuan nie..tp keadaan yg mcm nie buat ak lagi serabut....ak ikhlas tok ambik dia tros sebab aku taw dia mampu bg aku happiness...mmg ak xsalahkan dia ap yang jdi mgkin sebab masa xsesuai tp cara dia tok pertahankan aku lgsg xdak...im so disappointed!

ak dh tlg sedaya upaya tok buat dia lupakan ap yang dh jadi..tp dia sendiri xdak usaha tok lupakan..it's fact yang aku kena terima dia hanya terima aku dimulut...baru aku tahu...dia cple dgn aku tp hati dia lgsg bukan tok aku..hanya ckp dimulut tp di hati berbeza...sgt2 berbeza!tp layanan dia cukup sempurna...ak xkisah kalau dia xdpt syg aku sepertimana aku sayang dia..ak cuma xnak dia kecewa lagi and aku nak dia hidup bahagia xnk dia sakit tok kali ke2 walaupon aku involve sekali tok disakiti....sebab tuh org tua2 ckp "pilihla org yang syg kite dari yg kite syg dia" ak xkisah walaupon aku syg dia lebih dari dia syg aku...sebab ak nk hidup dia terjamin..shes nice girl and setia..bg ak ssh tok ak nk jmpe pompuan mcm dia...sb tuh ak xnak lpaskan dia senang2...apepon terjadi lepas nie akn tros jaga n tggu dia selagi aku mampu..nothing for me to delete psl post ak sebelum2 nie...biala gmbr dia kekal dlm blog nie selagi tuh dia kekal dalam hati aku...ak ttp tggu dia......

bittersweet~!

today is the last day actually before im going back to perak for sem's break. woooowwWWW 4MONTHS kot cuti...apela aku nk buat cuti ni and for sure working!must! nk topup sikit kasi poket cekang then i've my own plan..yezza! hope this will become reality..smlm paper last soga ak yang ak rasa tension tahap gaban gila nk jawab~ compared to all the papers rasenye paper soga la aku agak down main jawab je hopefully ok la...so besok pagi aku dah nk blah tinggal kan shah alam ni tuk sementara waktu with her and selama tu jgkla ak terpaksa berpisah sekejap dgn org yang ak baru kenal sem nie....=) here she is.....^_^

politics&soga o_O

we went through everything together no matter how hard it is..im always be besides you whenever you need me...but for this coming for months hope nothing will happen and i dare to say that i put my trust on you because i know who you are...distance is not a big deal for me..as long each of us taking care of each other....thanks for all the moment we spent together this semester even though just for a while but you make me so happy though~! can't wait for next sem to walk in the life with you cik adik comel!=) LOVE YOU ALWAYS.....

xo~jimzfirzia~xo

look out point night...

tonight is quite happening for me with friends...thanx for taking me there and wow its awesome night bebeh~! for the fers time selalu tgk dramatv jekan...haha~! then tonight i can see all the contents thats what we called KL...its nice place to be there. i wish to be there someday maybe...with you guys again maybe for reunion and for sure when i was there iwas thinking of you...i wish to bring you there someday and im gonna show you how nice the place is.......

btw, at the time im enjoying my meal tonight you are still running around in my head..thinking of you~! thinking of ur health which caused me very terribly afraid.i will pray so that you will recover soon syg...thanks for calling me tonight! i appreciate it..can't wait to see you tomorrow my syg..day by day myheart is very close to you may this will last long...

tomorrow i have to start to prepare my last paper for SOGA..haha! seems like very uneasy with this topic LOL..dh tinggal lama stdy then expect nk buka buku balik..alahai.....MALASNYA!!! i hope get do it well time final nti....wish me luck`~!

~010511~

today is the day....
where the happiness that i've been searching for.....
ABSOLUTELY be mine~!!!
i will try my best to create everything and be the best to you....
not only now but insyaALLAH in the future too...
i will never neglecting you and i will do what i've promised to you....
you are so priceless and valuable to me......
thanks for giving me a chance a valueable chance....
really hope for your guidance and love...
may ALLAH protects your heart from unwanted things...
at the end of this and the reality life.....
i would like to say this to you.......
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART....
MAY THIS RELATIONSHIP WILL LAST FOREVER....
AMIN.....
=)