babe...

babe...belajar pandai2 pon kalau xreti nk beza mana baik mana buruk pun xguna doe..

babe...kalau dah benda terang lagi bersuluh pun kau nak terhegeh2 xpayahla babe...nti kau sakit hati kau ngadu kat org..last2 org tuh pon sakit hati dgn kau..

babe...kau dh besar dh matang dh leh beranak dah pon,xkn benda simple pon kau xreti nk handle??member berbuih2 mulut nasihat pon xfhm bahasa ke???

babe...kau ssh mmg mber akn tlg, tapi ssh yang kau dpt tuh sebab diri kau sendiri rsenye xde sape nk tlg kau pun..SEBAB KAU SENDIRI XDE EFFORD NK BRUBAH...

babe...semayang tungging terbalik pun klau dosa kau bertimbun dgn mber2 doa nangis air mata darah pun xgune..dosa dgn manusia setel ngn manusia dgn Allah leh la kau taubat nasuha...

babe...klau ckp mak bapak pun kau xikut tambahla ckp mber2 kau ikut sgt ke?so pasni kau hadapla ape jadi! kau yang pilih nk sgt ke situ..

babe...ak dh nasihat kau semua nye nk bg kau sedar dan pikir mana yang patot kau buat,tapi klau cm nie prangai kau...pegi jahanam la..penat kau tau x nasihat org..tambah2 nasihat orang xfaham bahasa mcm kau ni babe!

babe...ada mata pandang la...ada akal pikirla...jangan jadi manusia yang kufur nikmat..Allah dh bagi segala perfect so guna la betul2..sb kau xguna dgn betula kau ssh...pastuh mintak tlg dgn tuhan...kau sendiri x tolong diri kau!

CHOW!!!

why!!!

why i can't even forget her???

why you are always in my mind???

am i too obsess???

i've tried everything possible to forget her but why???

why am i so stupid to miss someone who never care about me???

why she did this to me???

why did she willing to put me in HELL like this!!!???

i'm miserable to death you know!!!!!!

why don't you just kill me directly???

oh shit...this is too shit~!!!!

it has been nearly one month but i'm still the same...

never feel better and i'm too tired for this~!!!!

i never felt like this before......

whats wrong that i've done???

Oh God please help me...

i keep on praying to make me feel much better...

everyday i keep on doing the same thing again again and again...

i know what had happened there must be reason behind it and surely good things...

but i hope i will know about it asap...

i can't stand to be like this much longer....

i'm too weak to face this God...

i need Ur guidances to lead me into a correct path....

i was thinking why i need to meet someone and be mine and later i need to let her go....

avoid me from doing such stupid things ya Allah...

i've no one else to depend on....

only You place for me to ask for miracles and forgiveness for the things that i've done wrong....

=(

sorry guys

aku nak mintak maaf kat sesiapa yang mungkin tak suka dengan ape yang aku buat skrg nie..berbaik balik dgn someone yang penah buat tuuuutttt dgn aku..ak bukan la tunjuk baik tapi rasanya biala...ak tak nak create musuh skrg nie...this is not the time for me to create it bcoz there will be a lot of enemies in the future maybe...so now is the time to create network ONLY...

if she or he wanted to be my enemy silakan...aku xhalang and aku amat mengalu-alukan jela=) ak akan hadap sekor2 lau itu yang dia nak...ak bole tolerate lgi kalau org tuh cakap baik2 dgn aku..walaupon org tuh buat paling gila kat aku tgk keadaan laa..tipula lau ak ckp ak xsayang dia mmg ak sayang dia xdinafikan..just let the time settle it...=) but i will try to forget everything from now if it's not fated for me...

SORRY GUYS~

bila dipikir2kan balik???

haa betul la tu bila dipikir2kan balik..sedih memg la sedih lawak pon ade jgk...ade patot pompuan leh buat hal ngn laki?selalu laki buat hal ade la aku dgq tp skg nie yg jadik kat aku bnda lain laa plak~~! bhahahaha...Xkisahla Allah tu ade.Ok laa ni ak dh malaih nk sedih2 doe time dulu tuh mmg ak sedih sebab terkejut gila la baban...mmg sumpah meletop bai umpama hati aku ni kena bom ngn C4..lau xcaya tnye c4 lau sapa2 kenai ...cmtuh laa remuk dia....hmmm..nk kata ak berdendam dgn dia rasanya xdak kot sebab walaupon dia buat ak cm nie tp since setel elok2 ak leh tolerate...bole tolerate lagi???hmm..ikutkan hati nak jgk aku jadi mat SPLASHER yg masuk berita..dorg naik EX5 ak pon ada moto EX5..leh join tumpang sekaki la????bhahahahaha....

xbaik kenakan org walaupon org dh kenakan kta teruk cmana sebab ak rasa kita ni kecik ja pon walaupon ak big boss tp Allah tu je ade hak nk hukum sape2 makhluk dia yg xbtoi and ak selalu minx dia bg ak petunjuk kalau ak dijalan yg salah cm tuh jgkla tok sape2 yg berada dijalan yg songsang semoga pulang ke pangkal jalan...yes wlaupon mcm2 ak kena kali ni and this is the worst thing ever~!!! tp ak xmarah sgt sb ak dah aim tok jadi somebody and Allah sentiasa ada ngn org yg sabar kan...dia pon banyak ajar ak bnda2 kebaikan and aku xakan sesekali lupa segala jasa baik dia kat aku...

kalau dulu mmg ak kaki ngamuk gila la sikit2 je nk maki hamun yes alhamdulillah skrg nie ak sendiri rasa something yg ubah ak dari buat bnda2 tuh...and skg nieak doakan yg terbaik tok dia walaupon mgkin dia xpenah doa kat aku ke ataw mgkin oneday dia akn lupakan aku but yg pnting ak nak dia taw yg ape ak dah buat terbaik tok dia and kalau dia leh jmpak lagi baik dari ap yang ak dh buat bagus tok dia...sekian~ -JWP

ours..

now that i've lost everything to you

you say you want to start something new

and it's breaking my heart you are leaving

baby i'm grieving

if you wanna leave take good care

hope you have a lot of nice things to wear

and a lot of nice things turn bad out there

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

i'll always remember you like a child girl

you i've seen a lot of what the world can do

and it's breaking my heart in two

cause i never want to see you sad girl

don't be a bad girl

but if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware, yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get by just upon a smile

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl, yeah

baby I LOVE YOU, if you wanna leave take good care

hope you make a lot of nice friends out there

just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

it's hard to get bu just upon a smile,yeah yeah yeah

oh baby, baby, it's a wild world

and i'll always remember you like a child girl....

~mR.biG~

memories remain....

yeah after all ive been thru in this life...life must go on~! fact is a fact no matter how bitter it is or how sweet it is...i have to accept it..betul kata orang kalau dalam hidup ni nak semua manis bukan life laa kan..kalau ada yang pahit tuh at least someday u have something to share or to talk about...im slowly recover from what u did and i will try to forget everythings..for me, maybe Allah wants you to be a better person someday and so do i...yeah learn from the past xrugi ape2..just jgn ulang kesalahan yang kite dah buat and one thing jangan sesekali menganiaya orang yang telah berbuat kebaikan kepada kita..

orang selalu kata kalau kita baik sangat akn ada orang yang akn pijak kepala kita...yeap mmg betul dh lumrah manusia but aku diri aku. Ak akn troskan ape yang aku rasa selama nie bnda tuh patut tok aku buat and walau apapon terjadi x bermaksud tok aku berubah menjadi someone yang too bad~! kta hnya manusia and hnya mampu berdoa dia Allah saje la yang hukum sape2 yg belom sedar yang dia nie hanya manusia kerdil and Allah boleh je nak amek nyawa dia anytime..walaupon baru sikit rasanya ape yang Allah uji aku skrg nie aku dha rasa berat gila kot....macamana la aku nk hadapi lau dugaan yang lagi besar dari nie...

kita akn byk lagi akn merasa kehilangan dalam hidup kita..aku anggap ini adala ujian tok aku hadapai ujian yang ke depan yang belum tahu lagi mcmana...tp ak sentiasa berdoa agar Allah hindarkan aku dari ujian2 yang xmampu aku lalui and supaya Allah tak ambil org2 yg aku sayang dalam masa yang terdekat..sebab aku taw suma yang hidup akan mati someday cuma kta tataw ja bila..walau camana pon ak bersedia lom tentu ak akn berani hadapi bnda nie lau Allah nk uji aku..Hnya Allah tahu ape yang terbaik untuk aku..semoga segala doa2 aku kepadaNya dimakbulkan...amin.....

wake up~

pada mula mmg ak rasa serba xkena lepas ape yang dah jdik kat aku time nie...but as far as ak lalui bnda nie walaupon sorg2 kat umah tapi aku tetap xrsa sorg sebab x putus2 concern dari member2 aku yang amek kisah ape jadik kat aku kat sini walaupn jauh dgn korg tpi korg mmg da best..thank sebab korg terlalu amek berat psl aku wlaupon korg penah nasihat aku dulu tp yela org kata sebabkan sifat someone tuh kte jdi so unpredictable and aku take that risk nk harung jgk but end up mcm nie la...aku sendri pon xsangka bnda nie lej jdi sampai mcm nie..walaupon rasa sakit nie aku sorg yang rasa tp dengan ada korg buat aku bole jgk face it..thank korg...

at same time tanpa aku sedar Allah ni nk tunjuk jgk ape salah aku..bnda yang xpatot aku buat..rupanya bnde tuh salah..someone yang ak penah sayang dulu and penah tok lupakan dia walaupon dh jadi kawan tp ak xpenah appreciate dia as kawan...since ape yang jadi ni dia sendiri contact ak and terlalu amek berat dgn aku...mgkin apa yang jdi ni balasan apa aku dah buat kat dia...sori dats mybad...walaupon kta berpisah bukan sebab salah sapa tp atas family xpatot rasanya aku abaikan dia as kawan...she's nice girl i ever met and no one can beat you so far...aku berani ckp sebab aku kenal dia..walau cmana pon ak dah buat dia still amek berat kat aku amek kisah aku apa jadi kat aku..untung sapa dapat dia...boleh diharap and independence! i wish da best for your life RITA....

once again thank to you all my friends for all ur concern apa yang dh jadi kat aku...xperlu kite salahkan sape2 sebab mgkin ni ujian dari Allah tok aku...ak perlukan korg dalam hidup aku doe..tok bg aku support in anything aku buat...thanks a lot to mymom sebab always dengar masalah aku..and so far ak makin recover...special thanks to:

-my beloved mama-

-faliqizhamcrabnizamlutfeeadam n others sek8 geng-

-rita-

thanks alot....

cerita aku...

well ak sendiri dah speechless dh tataw nk ckp ape..mulut ak kelu nk berkata hati aku mmg berkecai mcm gelas kaca jatuh kat lantai berselerak...tp ak terpaksa terima keperitan ni alone...she's no longer with me..tp ak xnk salah kan sapa2 mgkin Allah nk uji cinta aku kat dia...and ni jgk ujian tok dia sama da dia akn buat cmana dia penah rasa dulu tok bgi aku rasa..yes! nampak dunia ni mcm xadilkan..tp ak percaya setiap yang jadi ad hikmah dia....

perpisahan ak dgn dia bukan la diminta..semua nie mmg takdir since permintaan keluarga dia ak sendiri terima dgn hati yg terbuka sebab ak harapkan yang terbaik untuk dia..bukan sb family xdpt nk terima ak tp sebab dorg risaukan anak sorg yg satu2 nya pompuan takut kecewa sekali lagi..ak xdpt buat ap2 ak hnya terpksa turuti walaupun ak akn tanggung siksa sakit dalam hati aku...semua yang terjadi ni ak terima dgn hati yg terbuka and ak sanggup jdi mangsa keadaan and ak xkisah la walaupon dalam masa ak kenal sekejap sgt jnji dia happy dgn aku..and dpt hbes kan sem3 dgn sempurna xkisahla walau pon aku jdi bounce guy...yeah this is not the first time....in life nothing to lose..good deed will replied with good deed..insyaAllah...

kepada org yg penah lukakan hati dia kau patot rasa bersyukur sebab kau dpt kasih syg dia yg suci and murni tapi kau dh sia2kan dia...ak xkisah ak kena tanggung akibat dari perbuatan kau...ak rela as long her life terjamin...aku hanya terkilan sebab org yang aku syg leh tggl aku tanpa sebarang kata..dia penah ngaku dia syg ak and dh sedia bagi ak hati dia walaupon xsepenuh aku mengerti keadaan dia...sampai at certain level "no one can replace me!"..tp alih2 kenapa skrg nie dia ngaku dia lgsg xdpt bg ak hati dia dalam sekelip mata...apa dosa aku dh buat???ak ni terkontang-kanting teringtkan dia byk sgt kenangan dia dgn aku walaupon ktorg baru kenal n rapat...tp suma tu amat bernilai bagi aku...ak hargai diri dia lebih dari segalanya...ak xpenah minx balasan...

ni bukan tmpt ak nk burukan sesapa ke ape tapi sebagai manusia biasa ak perlukan something tok aku releasekn prasaan aku nie...at time dia ada mslah,sakit,ssh senang...ak la tmpt dia...suap dia mkn ubat lap air mata dia time dia nanges...tp this time when ak ada mslah yang amat berat nie ak kena hadapi sorg2...dia tah ke mana malah layan aku umpama mcm xpenah kenal aku..ak bukan nk minx balasan ap yang aku dh buat tp sifat kesian tolak ansur suma xda...ak terkilan sgt2....sedangkan ak dh niat if ak dpt bersama dia aku akn jdi dia teman hidup aku terus..ak dh xnak pikir lgi psl2 pompuan nie..tp keadaan yg mcm nie buat ak lagi serabut....ak ikhlas tok ambik dia tros sebab aku taw dia mampu bg aku happiness...mmg ak xsalahkan dia ap yang jdi mgkin sebab masa xsesuai tp cara dia tok pertahankan aku lgsg xdak...im so disappointed!

ak dh tlg sedaya upaya tok buat dia lupakan ap yang dh jadi..tp dia sendiri xdak usaha tok lupakan..it's fact yang aku kena terima dia hanya terima aku dimulut...baru aku tahu...dia cple dgn aku tp hati dia lgsg bukan tok aku..hanya ckp dimulut tp di hati berbeza...sgt2 berbeza!tp layanan dia cukup sempurna...ak xkisah kalau dia xdpt syg aku sepertimana aku sayang dia..ak cuma xnak dia kecewa lagi and aku nak dia hidup bahagia xnk dia sakit tok kali ke2 walaupon aku involve sekali tok disakiti....sebab tuh org tua2 ckp "pilihla org yang syg kite dari yg kite syg dia" ak xkisah walaupon aku syg dia lebih dari dia syg aku...sebab ak nk hidup dia terjamin..shes nice girl and setia..bg ak ssh tok ak nk jmpe pompuan mcm dia...sb tuh ak xnak lpaskan dia senang2...apepon terjadi lepas nie akn tros jaga n tggu dia selagi aku mampu..nothing for me to delete psl post ak sebelum2 nie...biala gmbr dia kekal dlm blog nie selagi tuh dia kekal dalam hati aku...ak ttp tggu dia......

bittersweet~!

today is the last day actually before im going back to perak for sem's break. woooowwWWW 4MONTHS kot cuti...apela aku nk buat cuti ni and for sure working!must! nk topup sikit kasi poket cekang then i've my own plan..yezza! hope this will become reality..smlm paper last soga ak yang ak rasa tension tahap gaban gila nk jawab~ compared to all the papers rasenye paper soga la aku agak down main jawab je hopefully ok la...so besok pagi aku dah nk blah tinggal kan shah alam ni tuk sementara waktu with her and selama tu jgkla ak terpaksa berpisah sekejap dgn org yang ak baru kenal sem nie....=) here she is.....^_^

politics&soga o_O

we went through everything together no matter how hard it is..im always be besides you whenever you need me...but for this coming for months hope nothing will happen and i dare to say that i put my trust on you because i know who you are...distance is not a big deal for me..as long each of us taking care of each other....thanks for all the moment we spent together this semester even though just for a while but you make me so happy though~! can't wait for next sem to walk in the life with you cik adik comel!=) LOVE YOU ALWAYS.....

xo~jimzfirzia~xo

look out point night...

tonight is quite happening for me with friends...thanx for taking me there and wow its awesome night bebeh~! for the fers time selalu tgk dramatv jekan...haha~! then tonight i can see all the contents thats what we called KL...its nice place to be there. i wish to be there someday maybe...with you guys again maybe for reunion and for sure when i was there iwas thinking of you...i wish to bring you there someday and im gonna show you how nice the place is.......

btw, at the time im enjoying my meal tonight you are still running around in my head..thinking of you~! thinking of ur health which caused me very terribly afraid.i will pray so that you will recover soon syg...thanks for calling me tonight! i appreciate it..can't wait to see you tomorrow my syg..day by day myheart is very close to you may this will last long...

tomorrow i have to start to prepare my last paper for SOGA..haha! seems like very uneasy with this topic LOL..dh tinggal lama stdy then expect nk buka buku balik..alahai.....MALASNYA!!! i hope get do it well time final nti....wish me luck`~!

~010511~

today is the day....
where the happiness that i've been searching for.....
ABSOLUTELY be mine~!!!
i will try my best to create everything and be the best to you....
not only now but insyaALLAH in the future too...
i will never neglecting you and i will do what i've promised to you....
you are so priceless and valuable to me......
thanks for giving me a chance a valueable chance....
really hope for your guidance and love...
may ALLAH protects your heart from unwanted things...
at the end of this and the reality life.....
i would like to say this to you.......
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART....
MAY THIS RELATIONSHIP WILL LAST FOREVER....
AMIN.....
=)